Only from a distance (Short Story)

Phase 3: The next school year

This is the year that changed me... that's why I hate it.

As I return to school, I was doing fine. I had a crush on a teacher, I made more friends, I've became comfortable to the other students. I actually forgot about Ace throughout the whole summer. I also forgot his name that time.

So far, I lived a normal life. We would often eat out of the classroom and chat with my friends. It was a great decision.

My classroom was on the first floor. My friends and I would eat in front of the stairs. I was facing the stairs. Well, not actually facing but I can see it. I can see all the people coming down from it in my seat. And then I saw him, my forgotten idol that looks like a character from a manga. I didn't know he was still studying at our school because it was trash but there he was.

Every time he comes down to buy something from the cafeteria, my heart would skip. That is when I knew that I fell in love with him. I would stare at his back and wait for him to come back again. I looked like a creep ;-;

My eyes would look at his direction. If looks at mine, I would look away. After I look away, I'll regret. After I regret, I sulk. It was ridiculous but that is how it went. My friends will tell me if he's there and try to get me close to him. It was touching but I couldn't do it or I'll die from heart attack.

I have a diary and every moment I had with Ace has been written there. Even if we just passed by each other... I would write it. Crazy, I know but Ace was the type of guy that will make you do and feel things.

There was a time when a teacher asked Ace and his friend to carry some things for her. It's funny how I can remember it clearly.

I was eating fried rice. I waited and waited for him to come down but I was already finishing my food and he was not there. When there's only literally grains in my lunch box, he went down the stairs with some books with a friend and they went to the high school teacher's faculty. The faculty was just right beside me and he was fcking close*

(* a meter away lmao)

When he was done, he was going to leave, right? But then the teacher called him out. He saw me looking at him. Like an idiot, I ate a single grain of rice just to look away. When I looked up again, he was silently laughing and his eyes glowed. You can see it shine and I was speechless.

"Did I just... made my crush laugh?" I thought.

Girls tend to think this way. Some are humble and denial about it and others take it in and earn confidence. With Ace, I was in between those girls. I was denial and I earned confidence. But another side effect was being blinded by it. You get fed up by it. You'd begin to imagine things and hope that it will apply to your daily life. Even if you already thought that it ridiculous and you're fully aware on how reality works, you'll still hope. 

A girl entered my little love story. She was also a senior, she was small, and she was addicted.

She was crazy for Ace.

---------------------------

A/N:

Here's an update :)