P.P.S. This Time It's Forever

Chapter 1

IT ALL STARTED WITH A LOVE LETTER. It's a freezing Saturday and I just got my weekly handwritten letter from Peter in the mail.

He really is taking our ammended contract seriously. Which makes me glad, there's always that unexplainable feeling whenever you receive and read a handwritten letter -- especially from somebody so dear.

Dear Covey,

I've been doing this for months now and let me just say that I never saw myself writing a long handwritten letter before, but with you it just comes so easily. With you, I could do things I never thought I could do. Like I could just pour my heart out, write everything I ever wanted to say, no holding back.

I miss you like crazy. Everywhere I go feels so empty without you. Hearing your voice every night before I go to bed helps but, I don't know. Sure, I see you once a month whenever I get the chance to go to Chapel Hill, but the time I get to spend with you isn't enough.

It's just so hard not seeing you, not having you near me everyday. I couldn't just go to you, kiss you whenever I wanted to. I couldn't just hug you when I've had a bad day. Not knowing what you're up to, and all we could do is catch up over the phone at the end of the day. I miss miss you.

Oh, I went to your house last night to visit Kitty. I'm making sure to keep my promise and that I could atleast visit once a week -- preferably every Friday just when I get home from school and so far, we're good. Kitty always brags to everybody about how I still visit her at home even when you're away. It's cute. She hasn't changed a bit. Same old Kitty.

Everybody's excited for Winter Break because then, you and Margot could finally come and stay long at home. Well, I'm the most excited. I have A LOT of things planned for the both of us!

There's only a week more before the break! I can't wait, Lara Jean! I love and miss you so much, it hurts. This is an intense kind of longing, but I believe that everything will be worth it once we get through all of this. We just have to stay strong, knowing that we have each other. Hurry home, I'll be waiting.

Always and Forever,
Peter K.

P.S.
I'm sorry I couldn't visit you there as much as I wanted to, but please know that I really am trying. If only I could drive there everyday, I would.

I'm tearing up. Again. Though, I always am whenever I get to read Peter's letters. I miss him so much, I really do. Plus, the longer I'm away, the more I'm getting homesick. I miss everybody and just about everything at home.

Sure, I'm having fun here at UNC, I'm getting my whole Freshman experience as what Margot and Mommy wanted me to do. I met a lot of new friends. Everything's cool. It's just that, it's not the same without Peter.

Tears are slowly falling down my cheek. "I'll see you soon, Peter", I whispered to myself.

I wanted to call him badly but I know he's doing son duties on a weekend since that's the only time he could help his mom at her store.

I wouldn't want to get in the way of that since his mom is acting cold to me after finding out that I still got back with Peter last summer and we agreed to really stay together for college.

I saved the call for later. I just folded the letter, and kept it close to my heart.