Facts Book

fresno/graduation

soooo im moving to fresno. its quite nice, actually. i was very sad about it ,though, because i was so used to the city. i was used to lights and the tall buildings. but on the way there, the building sizes get smaller and smaller. but there's always downtown fresno. i googled it up and it looks really nice and it has a lot of lights but i cant wait to see it in real life. 

not to get dark or into detail, really, but ive done somethings that made my parents lose trust in me and i think fresno can give a fresh start. ill have new friends. but obviously, i wont forget the ones i have now and the ones i cant see. but maybe i can have a teenhood where i can be free and have more trust. fresno looks very safe so i can stay out longer maybe. i wanna stay out in the night with my friends and just do things i cant do in the city. fresno is beautiful. i love animals and there is tons of livestock over there. there's cows and chickens and pigs and OMGGGGG I WANNA GO ALREADYdskfjjkdsfjkdsn 

oh and i graduated/culminated. it was good and very hot and there was a helicopter that was very loud and it was circling over us and it was annoying but i got my diploma and im so happyy bc im going to a new step in my life and i can make mistakes and be young and parties and maybe losing my virginity and FUCK IM SO EXCITED. but i dont want to get preggo obviously. but i want to lose my virginity for sure. not to anybody, or course. but *shoulder shrug* it is what it is (larry) 

LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO juan didnt culminate. i felt bad BUT if we were still together and i found out he wasnt culminating, i wouldve cried my ass off for him. but since we're not together, a lot more sympathy is gone. so idc that much. omg as i write this, panic cord came on..... ow. also, that song is deep af, would recommend 8/8 m8. but anyways. his sorry ass stayed in a class watching a movie while i walked that stage and PROSPEREDDDDD HOE. but i wanted him to see me walk that stage and watch that ass grow arms and wave bye to him. 

im so fucking stupid. i asked him if there's anything he wanted to tell me before i moved... wth is wrong with me, if he has something to say, he can grow a pair and tell me. if i need to send him  a message asking him that, then im not his ex, im his fucking babysitter. whatever.

 my mom told me that she had a huge crush on this guy back in mexico when she was about my age, and he was giving off the same vibes. and he was like "i need advice on how to tell this girl i like her" but my mom didnt guess it was her and she was heartbroken. but nonetheless, he gave her advice. (lmao i laughed in this part) but when she asked her info abt her, they matched my moms description. but then he paused and said "BUT ITS NOT YOU TF" and she was like "oh..." but she found a heart with her name on it in his notebook.  and she was like "THIS DOESNT ADD UP"..but anyways this happened a few days before culmination and when it was the day, they weren't talking to each other. they were acting like strangers. but her and her friend were dancing and her friend was like "omg he's coming" and my mom was like "bitch keep dancing" and he kept coming "FUCK BITCH HE'S COMING" "KEEP DANCING HOEEE" and he was like "do you wanna dance?" and so they danced and talked.  then they went outside and talked for a bit and then he asked my mom out and they went out for 4 YEARS. and basically, she told me that he might talk to me. that he might have something to say and want to fix things with me..but no.

i might've forgotten something to say but ill say it later BAIIIIIIII