He walked out from the kitchen with my glass of water in hand and the lemon slices laid sturdy on the rim , he handed it to me as we found a place on the couch. Distance between us just enough to announce the unspoken discomfort I have grown inside.
What was I thinking ?
I wasn't .
He adjusted his position to be angled towards me , "would you like to watch a movie? I'd hate to think we bailed school just to sit in silence."
" uh sure , that sounds like a good idea"
I responded.
As if he needed any more confirmation that I was regretting my decision, the way I spoke that sealed it.
"Listen autum , if you want me to take you back I can do that. I didn't bring you out here to make you feel awkward or uncomfortable .......
Or whatever it is you are feeling right now. I brought you here to get to know you more , you intrigue me . Intrigue me enough to bring you here. So just let me know what you want to do, I'd hate to feel like you are here because you feel obligated now."
I took a deep breath , trying to sort out what I wanted. The answer was obviously, take me back. However what came out of my mouth was not that.
" no no no , I'm sorry I was just in my own world for a second or so. I'd love to stay here and get to know you to"
What in the world ? Why?
I guess I have a knack for always wanting others wants before retrieving my own.
"Well, alright. So would you like to watch a movie now ? Or would you like to talk? Work on the getting to know each other thing" he chuckled quietly after .
" I suppose it'd be smart to get to know each other , just a little bit " I smiled as I looked down at my glass of water .
Despite the odd circumstances I can't help but have this unsettling desire to know him and for him to know me.
So we sat there for the next few hours , talking about the surface stuff. What I mean by surface stuff is the things that don't really matter. The favorite color or favorite book. What genre music or movie is the best , and so forth.
And through those few hours I mentally pushed down the urge to ask the more pressing questions, like what major things happened in his life to create that guy he has become . What does he want out of life. Just more than the surface , more than what everyone else can know . I wanted his secrets.
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