Just Friends

Chapter: 2

Sorry for not writting this chapter sooner, I just could not really imagine straight on line the activity that would take place in the chapter.

Chapter:2 Jessica's P.O.V

I stared at the Kohler Double Door mirror looking directly at my swollen eyes, how my cheeks were red and how inflated I felt. I've never truly understood love merely because of my appearance but how I truly felt inside when he said he wanted to marry me it was a surprising affection, how did it feel to be love was unknown to my self alone because no one I've meet ever had an appreciation for my exsistance.

What can one do if there is noting more to say about your desire or long in life?

I've cling-ed tightly to the smallest bearing in my life which is the heart breaking memories of my dad truly there is nothing much I can do for him but to keep all his company standing and that is what I've done although not there I'm working on the computer working truly hard for each company owned by my father.

Money can be molded through me but even with the great intentions I still have a strong low self esteem.

I shook my head desperately trying not to cry once again, I sighed a long yet tantalizing breath that slipped my lips and succeeded to allow me to hold on,

this was never how I thought it would end I imagined it to be an end with death

~Till death does us part~

But this was what I got,

an angry situation that I wish had never undone my life of love,

this was it the end of my fresh and new beginning love,

it ended so beautifully that there was not a feeling left towards me

it ended with him pulling apart from me

so absorb right?

A sigh escaped my lips and nearly choked as a sob forced its self out of me

well at least I can make our love officially over

now knowing he played me.

Smiling at myself I opened the pipe causing warm water to splatter on the palm of my hand the warmth of the water eloped into me,

awakening the true me and softened the pain that I was tired of, I splashed the water unto my face allowing it to drip carelessly unto my clothing

and when remarkably wet I removed my shirt and pant and shuffled to the shower.

The heat melted the little pain I had in my burning heart and molded my pain into hatred the sad feeling crumbled and awakened the new hunting desire that I've never broken free

the feeling of total hatred

I will get my revenge on him even if it takes the last breath out of me even if I have to hurt any one I must get my revenge on him no matter the consequence no matter the pain that it will bring I must put him down.

Evil right

I got out of the tub pulling a towel to wrap the folds of my ugly shape and walked towards the mirror I was truly a very beautiful fat woman but face it without a body that a man desires my face was not worth it.

The new determination was from hatred the pieces of low self esteem broke its brier from me, even weak I will not show my true pain I will complete my task and lose pounds until I'm only 90 pounds.

I will reveal the beauty he has pushed away from himself and show him what I truly am capable of even when knowing it was all for the money I will make sure it is well indeed .