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♦︎ Shinitai-chan [IA] ♦︎

♦︎ Japanese Kanji ♦︎

シニタイちゃん
目が覚めた場所には　白い壁　保健室
屋上に行った記憶は　途中で　思い出せない

手を伸ばす君が　居る　届かない
どこまでも伸びてくこの腕でもまだ
あのコを越せなくて

あぁ　死にたい　死にたい　でも死にたくない
君が　止めて　くれる　か　ら
いくつ　キズを　重ねてもまだ　足りない　足りない　（足りない）

あぁ　死にたい　死にたい　でも死にたくない
泣かせ　たくない　人が居るから
いくつ　キズを　重ねてもまだ　足りない　足りない　（足りない）

ひとりぼおち　隠す　君の　カケラ
アソビが過ぎたみたい　鏡に映った
赤い　瞳で微笑む　姿

ね、生きたい 生きたい ホントの気持ち
届か ないま ま消えたくない
頭上のベニテングは覚えてる
君がどこに

あぁ　死にたい　死にたい　でも死にたくない
君が　止めて　くれるはずだから
何度　記憶　　を消してもまだ　足りない　足りない　（足りない）

あぁ　死にたい　死にたい　死にたい　
でももう　死ねない　君がここに　居てくれるからもう寂しくない

らーらーら　ららら　ららら　ららら
消えない　痛み　消える　記憶　また　繰り返して　増える傷

☆ Romanji ☆

me ga sameta basho ni wa shiroi kabe hokenshitsu
okujō ni itta kioku wa tochū de omoidasenai

te o nobasu kimi ga iru todokanai
dokomademo nobiteku kono ude demo mada
ano ko o kosenakute

ā shinitai shinitai demo shinitakunai
kimi ga tomete kureru kara
ikutsu kizu o kasanetemo mada tarinai tarinai (tarinai)

ā shinitai shinitai demo shinitakunai
nakasetakunai hito ga iru kara
ikutsu kizu o kasanetemo mada tarinai tarinai (tarinai)

hitoribōchi kakusu kimi no kakera
asobi ga sugita mitai kagami ni utsutta
akai hitomi de hohoemu sugata

ne, ikitai ikitai honto no kimochi
todokanai mama kietakunai
zujō no benitengu wa oboeteru
kimi ga doko ni

ā shinitai shinitai demo shinitakunai
kimi ga tomete kureru hazu dakara
nando kioku o keshitemo mada tarinai tarinai (tarinai)

ā shinitai shinitai shinitai
demo mō shinenai kimi ga koko ni ite kureru kara mō sabishikunai

rārārā rarara rarara rarara
kienai itami kieru kioku mata kurikaeshite fueru kizu

♡ English Translation ♡

Upon regaining consciousness, I was surrounded by four white walls. I was in the school infirmary.
I can only recall halfway through my memory of going to the rooftop.

When I stretch out my hand, you're right there, but I can't reach you.
Even with these arms that can grow at will,
I still can't surpass that girl.

Aah, I wanna die, I wanna die, but I don't wanna die,
because you're kind enough to stop me.
No matter how many times I wound myself, it's still not enough, not enough (not enough).

Aah, I wanna die, I wanna die, but I don't wanna die,
because I don't wanna make a certain someone cry.
No matter how many times I wound myself, it's still not enough, not enough (not enough).

I'm hiding the pieces of you, all by myself.
Looks like I've gone a little too far. In the mirror
is my own reflection, smiling with red eyes.

You know, I actually wanna live. I wanna live.
I don't wanna be gone from this world while still unable to tell you how I feel.
The poison mushrooms on the top of my head remember
where you are.

Aah, I wanna die, I wanna die, but I don't wanna die,
because I'm sure you'd be kind enough to stop me.
No matter how many memories I try to erase, it's still not enough, not enough (not enough).

Aah, I wanna die, I wanna die, I wanna die,
but I can't die anymore. I'm not lonely anymore, since you're here with me.

La~la~la~ lalala lalala lalala
Inerasable pains; erasable memories—the cycle repeats itself, while my wounds go on increasing.