All I feel is emptiness.
I have nothing of worth
I have only material possessions
I want something more meaningful
I had a purpose with you
it was only to make you happy
somewhere down the line I failed
you didn't want me like I wanted you
I was resolved to be alone when we met,
I wasn't looking, you caught me by surprise
all that we shared is now bittersweet memories.
I told you everything, before we were together but the hope that I had for us.
the hope is what is keeps me alive
the thought that you one day you realize how much we can still share
I curse the day I was born
I should never had lived
I don't feel alive
I'm drowning in despair
I need you!
I just want your time; some comfort to ease myself
I lost many years to solitude; waiting for the day you came, and them you where here
I realize now that we rushed, and you feel trapped
I never asked for anything but you persisted and now you live with regret
don't hid it, cause I know you.
you will not tell me where I failed, you said "you didn't do anything" Did you?
did you let someone else in where I should be? Please tell me the truth.
why wasn't I good enough? if "I'm such a good woman that deserves to be happy" why can't I have you, whom I love, makes me laugh, makes me feel safe?
Yes, I quote your words to me. But can you answer me. Why do I deserve better? I am happy with you?
why?
Tell me ,ease my pain, calm my nerves.
my anxiety tells me you are going to kick me to the curb, that you will cast me aside like you do to ashes stop burning.
Am I that to you? Lingering ashes to a once burning flame?
you are who I want for life. my life has no meaning with out you.
please give me a reason to stay.
