my ranting book

it won't change ever

She dumped me I don't care I still love her I'm not even mad I'm upset but I'm not mad I don't hate her that's something I could never bring myself to do I love her and I'll always love her even if she refuses to believe me I still love her

People tell me I'm wrong but i feel it in my heart I feel nothing but love when I'm with her or even talking on the phone or just texting her and I'm afraid that she'll hurt herself I cry at night because on day something's gonna push her off the edge and I won't be there to save her like I want to and her getting hurt is the only thing that would push me off the edge and land me in the same position I'm afraid to lose her and even tho I did lose her and my lover I can't let her lose her life i just can't and I refuse to allow her to think that I lie about my love for her ill prove it one day 

-Derrienne