Sarah's pov.
It had been a month since Dean was sent to Hell by Lilith.
Everything was different.
I felt left out.
I cried everyday.
I was a mess.
Dark circles and bags under me eyes.
My hair looked like a crows nest.
My skin turned pale.
I had lost weight due to not eating at all.or barely.
Dean was a father after dad died.
Sam on the other hand.
Well he handled it pretty well.
In away he had moved on.
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I sat on the porch and holding a picture of Dean , sam and I.
It was when we had stood near the impala and Dean told some stupid joke.
Looking at the picture of us , looking happy like nothing was ever wrong.
All of us looked like the happiest people , even the man who condemned himself to Hell for eternity for his little brother.
And for some fucking I reason I felt like I could have helped.
Maybe I could.
Maybe If I had noticed something wrong , I could have saved them both and let myself go.
I couldn't help thinking that way.
By now I was crying full on.
I got up from the porch and walked towards the impala.
Bobby had asked us to day for a while till we were ready to get back on to our feet.
But in the meantime we were hunting nearby places.
I placed the picture in my denim pocket and opened the door to Deans impala.
And without another thought I drove.
I saw Sam in the rearview mirror open the door and call out .
I ignored. I just drove , I kept driving. I didn't have a plan as to where I was headed.
I stopped infront of a woody eerie area.
You'd think after all the hunts and cases I'd know better than to stop infront to an unknown woods , but daylight soothed the eerie feeling.
I sat down and cried hysterically.
I started to hiccup.
I had no control over myself anymore.
"Why" I asked even though I know no one could hear me.
" Why dean?I can't do this anymore. C-can you hear me?
Everything's a mess. Sam seems to have moved one yet were still hunting Lilith. Dean come back."
I stayed a few more minutes and then decided to head back.
I sat back into the Impala started the ignition and took a deep breath and headed home.
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