One Direction One-Shots (BoyxBoy)

I shouldve been there (Ziall)

Im sure many people used similar stories like this so....

Dont blame me if you get a little...sad :(

Zayn's POV

Zayn please message back!

I need you....

Please?

Are you ignoring me or are you asleep?

FINE!

You'll never hear me again!!!

I just kept sniffling and my eyes are red from all the crying and rubbing. My cheeks were red as a tomato. I.... I should've been there for him.... I should've replied back, but i didn't...I felt my phone vibrating but i ignored it and kept partying with my best friends Harry, Louis, and Liam. Currently im walking to a place I thought i wouldn't have to go to for a very...very long time. I tried to swallow this lump in my throat but i couldn't....i didn't have the courage.

I knew Niall was depressed but i did nothing about it even though i always told him he could talk to me if he ever needed someone to talk to and the one time he does that... i end up ignoring him. I ignored him when he needed me the most. What was i thinking....I'm such an idiot, I couldn't stop crying.

The night i heard Niall hung....himself...i couldn't even...AHHHHHHHH words can't even comprehend what i felt! I felt like sht, sad, angry, useless, an asshole, and worst of all i knew...that i had a crush on him. His contagious laugh just knew how to place a smile on my face, and his beautiful cerulean blue eyes were always so captivating. I could stare at his eyes for days and his fake blonde hair was just so cute, i always wanted to run my fingers through his hair....but i can't. I also wondered how sexy he would look without the blonde, and just his normal hair color.

I was seen as "The Bradford Badboy" to all, but...in front of him... i was just a shy stuttering idiot who was to blinded to see what he wanted all his life was right in front of him...and he let him slip through his fingers. Sigh....I finally arrived...the cemetary.

Believe it or not it's been a year since... Niall passed. I walked slowly on the concrete pathway making twists and turns until i stopped and stood there. Watching... Niall's name on that tombstone was unsettling...it should'nt be there. For the past year I've been visiting him everyday...i always got a rose to give to Niall....but no matter what i do... I know for a fact that he will never forgive me. Even i don't forgive myself.

So i sat next to Niall's tomb and gently placed my hand on top of it. Then i slowly rubbed the side of the tombstone with the back of my fingers. I kept crying like always and placed my head next to Nialls....

I should've been there Niall....Im so so so....Sorry

OMG WELL THIS IS MY FIRST STORY I EVER WROTE ON WATTPAD!!! YES I KNOW ITS SHORT BUT I HOPE IT DIDN'T SUCK TOO MUCH!!!

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