Tragic life

Being unwanted is better than being ignored

Mrs. Landon burst outside with a look of disappointment in her face "what's going on here?!" Without turning away from my red stained hands I whispered in response "murderes" Mrs.Landon squinted her eyes at me and muttered "speak up child!" In a furious tone. I whipped my head to look at her with tears tainted red streaming down my face "MURDERERS!" she stumbled back in meer shock for I have never raised my voice before in such a tone. After her small but exaggerated shock her gazed slowly turned towards the crowded, road due to all the noise and her instinct that it was the reason for my wild accusations and behaviour. The horrendous sight that only me holly and her followers witnessed was covered mainly by a stopped car and a panicked man, with his hands behind his head and facial expression of "oh my god what have I just done." You could tell it was an accident. but the only part of this horror that wasn't covered was Clara's bear hand, on the cold merciless floor. With her palm open yet slightly closed at the same time, I knew it was a sign of no return.

Most of the orphans came outside to see what all the ruckus was about, but were told almost instantly after coming out that "there was nothing to see" and that they "should go back inside." And they were pushed back in by mrs Langdon. But that wasn't true at all there was much to see. My best friend laying cold in the floor lifeless because she was murdered, murdered by... by those fucking evil people. The longer I  sat on the side of the road the more time I had to think about how disgustingly vile holly was, this led to me wanting to do the same to her as she did to Clara just more painful. "Hey!" I shouted at holly as she was quickly trying to vacate the scene, I didn't know what I was doing when I shouted her but it was better than nothing. "What do you want?" She sneered to me as if to say leave it alone, but I wasn't going to just leave it what had just happened changed my life and will forever, and there's nothing I can do about it so she had to pay for what she's done, she's going to pay and I don't care what it takes. I'll make her understand.

"Get back here NOW YOU FUCK!" Holly swivelled around in great shock after hearing me blaze out those words, she knew I was angry. I was more than angry, the word angry doesn't justify what I was feeling at all. "What did you just call me you fag" her words weren't as confident as before, she had no followers around to do her dirty work just me and her, as well as mrs Langdon in the background just waiting for me to do something a reason for her to get me kicked out. But I didn't care about that, by this point I was seeing red and holly nothing else. "COME HERE!" I wailed. Before holly could get any words out her smug mouth and then with out hesitation grabbed her long blonde hair by its dark brown and dirty roots, with one forceful push I smashed her head to the floor, not hard enough to cause any brain damage or blood to flow out, however it was hard enough to send a message. I crouched down to her level on the floor with rage on my face and sat on top of her to ensure she couldn't run away this time. I gripped very tight to her shirt to prove I was the one who was taking charge of the conversation, I started to scream in her ear again "YOU'VE JUST TAKEN EVERYTHING FROM ME, SHE WAS ALL I HAD LEFT AND NOW ITS GONE!." That scream was loud enough that walking citizens from a different street could hear me. but that wasn't enough I wanted the whole world to hear me, I wanted every single person on the planet to know what she had done. Holly lifted her head off the ground with pieces of gravel tumbling off her checks, she glanced into my eyes with small tears gathering on her waterline and a busted lip a very deserved one. she mumbles her words with a shaky voice "I'm s-sorry it w-wasn't meant to be this way." She pleaded that I let her go, but no it didn't change anything my mind was set I fucking hate her, I have no mercy for this murderer "how was it meant to go then huh, were you just supposed to scare me, was that it. You've just destroyed another life, you've murdered someone because you felt the need to show how much power you had over me, you are the most disgusting human being I've ever met in my life and I'll never forgive you. I hope you burn in fucking hell, because Clara going to heaven that's for sure, she did nothing to hurt no one (I started to feel the tears well up in my eyes at this point but I carried on regardless) why did you do it, why." My grip loosened from her shirt causing creases to form on her once neat shirt with that she could see the pain and dispare in my eyes, but she didn't care not really, she was just looking for away to get out of this situation.