Trust Issues

FIVE

*************** Hayley POV ***************
I wonder is demi ok.   Maybe I should text or should I just give her time.  I mean I am a terrible person. It only coz when I was little I was abused by my parent it was sexual abuse. I drink to forget every simple moment of thoses years.  But finally it's stopped.  The reason why I don't do what so called " relationships " should do is stick with one person.  I get bored to easily.

The reason why I fuck so many girls coz to me it's normal.  That what I grey up with constant sex with random guys that my dad paid them bad monsters to do.  If I explain to people they would think of me as a horrible and terrible person.   I know demi went through a lot I want to be there with her.  But how can I be there for her if I'm dying in side too.    I'm not ok?  Mate I need help.... maybe

****************** Demi POV **************

I woke up slowly, in hospital surrounded round by doctors asking why I did this. So I just stayed silent.   I don't want them know why I wanted kill myself all they would do is share with the world just for everyone to call me an "attention seeker" according to rats.   Yes, apparently helping the world and opening up isn't the right thing to do right now.  Then I feel my eyes flooding.  Why am I crying.  Why again?   What am I thinking of? I don't know anymore? When will people stop using me? Then I look up and see that whore.... Hayley. Why is she here?    I hate that slut right now. Demi rolled her eyes.

" sorry I don't speak to whores"

" come on demi don't be a stuck up bitch, let's talk about this.  Why did you do it? Was it coz off me? " then Hayley slowly slide her hand forcing her way toward demi pussy. 

" STOP!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING ARE YOU SICK??? "

But I loved it why?
Then few mins later.....
I'm fucking her, pumping in and out curling my fingers that how she likes.   I slowly ate her out to get this over with.  I flick my touch on her clit making her scream and I feel her wall tighten up... I like her juices up she taste so good

" mmmmmmm " then I wink

" so hummm demi are we you know together again?"

Then I stand there in silent not knowing what to say.  I love Hayley of course I do.  So much.   I did everything for her. But she broke me badly.  But I can't live with out her.  Never.   But I can't forgive her.

I stood up looked her in the eye.  " yes "

Why did I say that? I was supposed to say now.  Urghhhhhhhh Hayley get off my mind.    Then I know I'm kissing her her sweet tender lips touching mine.  I don't want pull way so I carried on.  Kissing her.  

" Hayley, I love you so much " I smiled at her forgetting the past but it's still there.   Not long ago I was well.  Raped.  It was random.   I went clubbing alone.  Drunk out my mind.  Then next thing I remember.  I was forced.  I said no multiple times. But I feel like I can't trust anyone anymore...... how do I tell Hayley I'm..... well pregnant....