Broken Hearts (SuperCorp)

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"I am so proud of you. Do you want me to stay over tonight? I can be there as long as you need." Alex's voice breaks as she asks.

"No, no." I hear myself say. " Go, be with your girlfriend. I need to know you two are happy. Like I want to know about Winn and Lyra. J'honn and Megan. Clark and Louis.   It's not like everybody else's world has stopped. You don't have to act like it." My chest feels like there is a hole in it. Like someone poured acid into my heart and its slowly consuming more and more of me.

"What do you need right now?" Alex asks.

"Just...  never let her go. Okay?" She nods and then wind feels my ears drowning out anything left unsaid between us. I can't even look back at my sister, my best friend, because even at the end of this tragedy her light is too bright for me to bear. So I fly far and fast.

I fly out over the ocean, far from the city. A scream rips from my throat, my soul trying to escape with it. The familiar tingling sensation in my eyes as my heat vision escapes into the air.

Then its quite. I feel... empty. The world has faded into a duller version of itself in the pale moonlight. I just float there, looking at the stars, trying to still see that little white ship that had delivered me to Earth. Twice. And now it was taking away the man I loved and would never see again. 

Suddenly dawn begins to break. All at once it's a new day and I am surprised the earth still turns because despite what I said to Alex, my world has stopped and now I can't even see the stars. I began my flight home and dress for work. Supergirl had a long day, not Kara Danvers.

Cat Grant sits behind her desk as I walk in, and for a moment I am okay. It's familiar. She has her glasses in her mouth and scoffs at the news story about Lillian Luthor saving the day. 'Lena never gets the appreciation she deserves.' I think bitterly.

"Whats wrong with your face?" Cat asks in a way only she could.

"What? Do I have something?' I say, touching my face, I hadn't eaten so I know it couldn't be that. I just couldn't stomach anything this morning.

"That frown. Its causing little tinny wrinkles to sprout up under your eyes. Ker-ah, The city has been saved from that fashion challenged fascist. So why do you look like your world's about to end?" She stands and puts a hand on her hip.

"It's a... it's personal." I glance at the ground but I can feel her gaze digging into me, pulling out the truth. I take a steadying breath.

"While you've been away, I have been in a relationship."

"Ker-ah Danvers has a boyfriend." She exclaims.  "A year in a yurt and I miss everything."

"Had a boyfriend." I correct her. trying to get it all out before I break down in tears. "For the first time ever I really liked someone. Loved someone, and it didn't work out. It umm..." I struggle to find words as I sit on the couch.

"Hurts." Cat provides.

"Like hell." I agree. "I mean everyone close to me in my life is in a happy relationship and I thought I could have that too, but I am starting to think its just not in the cards for me."

"No. Take it from someone who has been married four times,"

"Four?"

"Well it would have been five but I turned down Rob Lowe. Twice Actually." Cat takes a seat across from me."

"It just feels like this pain isn't going to go away." The tears are coming and I don't think I can stop them.

"That's what I said about child birth. But it did and it will. No, see, the thing that makes women strong is that we have the guts to be vulnerable. We have the ability to feel the depths of our emotion. And we know we will walk through it to the other side. And by the way, you have accomplished great things this year. Your Articles. Slavers moon, Alien Registry, Alien Fight Club. I mean its all very powerful. And your prose, your prose is not bad. I mean its not great but its not bad."

"You read them?"

"I did. I did,  2017 and they have WiFi in the Himalayan Mountains. But, you my dear, are on a Hero's Journey, like Joseph Campbell would say. And yes you have hit a bit of an obstacle but you will soar right over it. Just like I would. Of course you won't be wearing Louboutins."

I chuckle but then hear sirens coming from the TV and a news broadcast about a two building fire.

"Actually um..." searching desperately for a reason to leave and coming up short. "There is something I forgot I have to do. I have to go." Standing to leave.

"By all means." she says smiling. I have missed these moments with her. 

"Thank You." I say pouring every ounce of gratitude I have into those two words. Cat Grant eased the pain enough for me to feel my world to start to move again. Achingly slow, but moving. And so am I, out the nearest unoccupied balcony window and racing towards a blazing fire.

Authors note:

Like I said this is my first fic. This is the only chapter that I am including all that dialog from the show. Mostly because its so powerful and to also give me an idea where to start. I love this fandom but some of the SuperCorp fics seem very unrealistic when it comes to their relationship so I wanted to give it a go. Please read and critique.