Gwen wakes up again to the baby monitor going off. She rolls and looks at the clock seeing that it has only been an hour since she got up the last time. As she opens the door to her room Blake is standing in front of it.
"I can get her this time. You can sleep."
"I'm fine. I know you're busy responding to emails so I'll get her. Don't worry about us." Gwen says as moves past him to Lena's nursery.
Blake retreats at her stinging words. They have never fought like this, where they are both upset and angry. What is he supposed to do? Let his record deal go? They have had Lena for months now. He gets she just started calling them mommy and daddy, but it's not like he's leaving for good. It's only a week or so.
Gwen closes the door behind her walking over to Lena and picking her up. She pulls her into her chest as she walks to the rocking chair. Lena has a death grip on Gwen.
"Baby it's okay mommy is right here. Shhhhhh." Gwen soothes the little one while tears run down her face. Fighting has the whole house on edge and Gwen wonders if while Blake is in Nashville if she shouldn't just go back to LA. She misses home and her family. Gwen rocks Lena until she falls asleep on her chest. Gwen is so tired and worn out from the crazy this day held; high to low in one day. Before Gwen gets the energy to get up and put Lena back in her crib she falls asleep too.
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The sun in his face is what wakes Blake up at 6:30 the next morning. He is relieved when he realizes Lena must have settled down and slept for a couple hours straight. He decides to sneak into their room and change clothes and go spend some time in the barn, maybe take one of the horses for a ride, before the girls wake up. When he sees the bedroom door open and no Gwen he panics. She isn't here. Did she leave? As soon as that thought pops into his head he instantly sprints to Lena's door, praying his daughter is on the other side. He slowly opens the door and sees Gwen in the rocking chair asleep with Lena asleep on her chest. He releases the breath he had been holding. She is still here; she didn't leave. He walks over to them. He knows he shouldn't but he hasn't touched her since yesterday morning. He reaches up and caresses her face. She stirs and her eyes open slowly.
"Hey sorry I didn't know where you were so I wanted to check on Lena." She smiles but not a real smile.
"I guess I fell sleep here." She says
"Gwen sunshine I'm sorry."
"Not now Blake. Not in front of her." He lets out a defeated sigh but as he turns to go out the door she speaks up
"Blake we need to get Lena breakfast...you make the pancakes, I'll make the coffee?"
"Sure thing."
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As they sit at the table eating breakfast, he can tell this is all for Lena. She is trying to keep things normal for Lena. She won't make eye contact with him and she doesn't ignore him but she doesn't try to talk to him either. When he is finished he gets up asking Gwen if she is done, which she confirms she is. So he gets her plate taking it to the kitchen with his. He makes his way back to the table kissing Lena on the head.
"I'm gonna go work in the barn for a little while. If you need me just come get me."
"Ok." she barely acknowledged his existence all morning and it's tearing him to shreds.
