Another sleepless night
Annually find myself at this time
Telling myself things gonna be alright
Or maybe things could've been different
If you would've only made it your mission
You was sworn into the military at 17
Maybe it was your escape
Left me all alone to go follow your dream
Momma worked twice as hard to fill your shoes
But it didn't seem right no matter who she choose
Argue and fight nightly most times they left her battered and bruised
For the scars that I hide the tears that I cried the years that went by
Only had me wondering why
I grew to hate you wishing God would replace you
And at the same time all I wanted was to stay with you
Trouble was in my mind missed out lessons forced me to go blind
It was no reason I always seemed to lag behind
You was never there for my accomplishments
You was never there for the new boyfriend
You was never there for any of my games
You was never there when I felt like a lame
You was never there to offer no wise words or encouragement
No it's okay son I'm here so don't stress it
You was spending time with you're newborn family
Negating what you already got
"You ain't shit and I'm scared that it rubbed off on me"
