Life has taught how to be a man. I fucked up so much god wouldn't even understand. But I have always been 100 to everyone with brutal honesty. Why the fuck is life also cruel? I never recovered from my pain this shit is so serious it damages my brain. Whenever I vent to people they don't give a fuck. So fuck people, fuck life, fuck you, and fuck me. I'm only speaking my mind that's all I have left. My body is in hell but my mind is free so just let it speak. My family say they love but where the fuck was you. My mom didn't care, my father left, siblings try to kill me. Here I am screaming out help. But there's no answers cuz the world a dark place. My only goal is to help people. The only thing I ask for is a good relationship. I fucked it up with a lie. Things happens for a reason she said but life is going to be great god listens to you. I've been alone every since I left the womb. Where the fuck is love don't nobody care about me. I'm fighting so hard and you don't want me that's very clear. But here I am still fighting I want forever but it's much to bare if this is only one sided. Where the fuck is my life headed they say I have a bright future. This shit looks dim fuck life. Why the fuck was I born to bring a small change to the world I tried they said fuck that and cut me up I've been stabbed, beaten, and almost died. I never gave up shit I really don't know why. This bullshit they call trust has been broken. What the fuck has life gave me a fucked up home, a girl who doesn't want me, there's this world that fucking hates me. But I ask people this when they say they care. Why the fuck you give up on me. Even tho y'all don't trust me don't mean ion trust y'all but y'all trust is breaking and falling. It's funny how I still ask for people and how can I believe. These obstacles I have failed so many times. I have only one person who can still fwm that's god. But back to my life I want your mind not your body. I can't stand to be involved in a world full of death and misery. Just fuck this world I'm ready to leave. I want a girlfriend and someday a family. But life says fuck you. You don't deserve happiness go fuck yourself.
