Sex, Love, & Hurt

To forget is to forgive. I learned how to forgive the people who hurt me the most. My name is Alyssa Heart and I'm 15 going on 16 in 3 months

While going up in NC my mother and I and my big sister Michelle lived in a small house in Belmont all by our self. My father had left us when I was a baby for the 5th time, it's hard growing up without a father but oh well I didn't care for now at least.

I had a good life until 3 years ago. I learned how to do drug, have sex, give blow jobs but I have never done none of that stuff until recently... My mom is lesbian and she found a girl friend across town, My life was a mess after I moved. I was sad seeing my friends go on with their lives without me, we grow up together. A week before moving I meet this cute guy at the park where I was moving, his name was Alex. He was so cute with his dark brown hair and light brown eyes with a Carmel skin. Mostly I would go after black boys but nooo this was something different a Mexican. I had a boyfriend at that time so I couldn't do anything with Alex. Dominique the guy who I was going out with was a square and so was I. We was going out for like 7 months and I cheated on him with 3 different guys. Talking about being a whore.

Whatever I was a whore but I only made out with guys.. I had never had sex until that day...it was scary but I wanted it, It hurt me so bad physical and emotional. I lost my V card at fucking 14 or 13 can't remember. After was together for like 9 months we literally had sex ever day without condoms. I regret it. It got to a point where I got depressed and tried to kill me self about 4 times.

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Chapter 1, comment for more chapters. Please & thank you ❤️