Will I ever get her back ??

1.Worst mistake of my life !

EVAN'S POV.....

GUILT. Small word with big effects. Something that is burning me from within,something that makes me hate myself. I hate myself for accepting that bet, I hate myself for playing her,I hate myself for letting her go and I hate myself for hurting her. 4 years ;how can I describe them: slow,agonizing,meaningless. 4 long years I am trying to find her but still nothing.
I love her,want her,need her. I want to hold her in my arms and never want to let her go.I want to kiss her,I want to see those eyes that would lighten up when they look at me.
Hurt,sadness that were present in her eyes when they last look at me.
I remember that day :that fucking day I made the worst mistake of my life.....

4 years ago..
Rosewolt high the best school in the city with best facilities,best faculty and where I met my best friends .. Aiden,Richard,Sam,Rihaana,Zeal and Jennifer.
Introducing me,well the female population of our school would describe me the best. Captain of the football team,most handsome face of the school,sexy-sculpted body with 6'2 height basically a sex god. Girls wanting to be with me and guys wanting to be me was as similar as earth revolving around sun! Is my ego larger than the room?? Nahhh...it's fucking larger than the universe!!!
Everything is was going good normal until that awful day.
After a weekend full of party, drinking, games and casual sex it was Monday going back to routine. Lunch time came faster than expected. Moving towards the lunch corridor with Richard or Ric as he prefers and Sam ,recieve end no.of flirty smiles, seducing winks on our way as usual.
"Oh guys look at that ass ..it's calling me to grab it and have my way with it. " Well that's Sam:the group pervert for you. We just laughed at him.
"Hey sammy look at that person.. totally into you.I guarantee it'd be a blast on bed "Ric said . Sam's eyes lit up hearing that and was looking around for that person. Ric pointed towards Neil who is very creepy with long hair,sex addict and "gay ".
Sam glared hard at Ric "You motherfucking piece of shit,you're definitely dying today "bursted Sam while hitting Ric. I was laughing my ass off.
Finally after long walk we reached our cafeteria and straightaway reached our table. We spotted Rihanna and Zeal talking to each other.As we reached the table Ric briefly kissed Rihanna as in Rie as we call her. Yeah they are the only couple in our group. "Where's Jennifer? Why isn't she here ?"asked Sam. With a sigh Zeal replied " Poor bff had some anchoring practice for the school event ." Coming to introducing my friends : Ric is in the football team like me while Sam believe it or not is an art major.Aiden is in business and currently in LA for some family time. Rihanna and Zeal are in fashion designing. Both very sexy actually the most sexy girls of our school. Jennifer though is in business stuff basically wants to go in marketings. She is the most weird girl of the school. She is obese ,quiet or in her words prefers listening to people more. But has a very tough look that she plasters ,that's why even boys of our school are scared of her. Usually quiet but when she is on the stage ,she literally rules it. Her personality stands out on the stage. Hence she is loved but mostly respected in our school. Zeal and Aiden are her best friends.
"God she is like busy with everything in school and now the event..I bet she hasn't eaten anything yet."said Sam.
"I know right, she has to cover all the events of our school "sighed Zeal.
"True dat ..but that's because she is the best,respected by the whole school and liked by them "commented Ric.
"I really wonder who does she likes "said Sam. That's actually something none of us know. Does she even like anyone ? She is usually so quiet that we never asked her anything about this topic.
Smirking I cockily said "Well she might like me ,I mean it really won't be a surprise that she would like me. Who doesn't? " Suddenly Zeal and Rihanna started laughing like miniacs. After 5 mins I really got angry and glared at them that sobered them up. "Well you are definitely wrong Evan. Jennifer is not even slightly interested in you ."said Rihanna who was trying not to laugh. Sam though had other plans coz.he was laughing and mocking me about the same.
"Well to bad if you guys think so, but I am sure I can make her fall for me with my charms.''
Zeal replied with a serious tone "She won't because she doesn't want to fall in love or anything remotely connected to it ."
Ric's eyes lit up as if he got a brilliant idea . He smirked evilly and said "Let's make a bet if Evan can make Jennifer fall for him or not . We'll see who is right."
Hmmm.. not a bad idea. Oh could I be more wrong?
"We're on !!'' said everyone.