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Wow it's been a while since I have written on here. I haven't brought myself to because my life is so messed up. The world is crazy😥 My mom was given six months to live because as some of you may know she has lung cancer that spread to her whole body. I don't know what I can do without her. In a couple of months I'll be entering high school and I don't know how to handle that without a mother. My whole family has reached out to me. Some even in different countries saying.. "oh you can move half way around the world to come live with us and escape your pain." Like WTF!! As much as I want to something in my mind always tells me to stay put and help. Have any of you guys ever been in my position with any of your loved ones? If you have.. How did you cope? Because I still don't know what emotions I'm feeling. It just feels like I'm heartless. I feel like I'm being depressing so I'll stop writing to save you guys some pity. 
                             XX. -Christine