TWO SOULS || MYG

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"Mom! Dad!" I said while sniffling. I ran upstairs and went to their bedroom. I opened the door and my eyes widen. I saw blood smeared all over the walls and puddles of blood beside it were two lifeless bodies. My parents. I dashed to them and shook them "MOM! DAD!" I cried even harder and louder.

I know I hated them but I still kinda loved them. In the corner of my eye I saw a piece of paper on their bed. I grabbed it and sat by my parents bodies. My watery and blurry eyes made it hard for me to read the note. I wiped my tears and read out loud.

"Jaemin you were a mistake, a big mistake. We didn't want you alive, we wanted to kill you. Isn't that harsh but that would lead us to jail if we did. So why not do the opposite and do it to ourselves. We would love to see you suffer more and more. Say thanks to your grandmother she's the one that took care of a rat like you. We couldn't stand looking at you, look what I have created a horrible monster.
—Mom and Dad"

I smiled at the note and tears fell. "I Love You Too," I got up and walked downstairs with the same smile on my face. It was a smile, a smile of despisement.

I went to the kitchen and lit up a match. "Goodbye" I threw the match at the prepared gas I spilled on the floor and left the house. I felt guilty but they deserved it. I can't stand looking them either.

•FLASHBACK END•

I went to class with Suga since we had all of our periods together. I sat down and plugged in my headphones and started listening to music as the teacher talked.

I sat at the back of the class, so the teacher couldn't see I was doing. Yoongi sat by me too, I don't know why but I feel like me and him have become closer. It's just a feeling.

"Jaemin pay attention" Suga said as he nudged me. I shook my head and went back to what I was doing.

"Are you asking for another kiss because I would be glad to do it again" he said.

I jolted and payed attention to the teacher. "Atta girl" he said as he chuckled. I punched his arm and went back to paying attention to the teacher.

School went by quickly and lunch was left. Suga asked me if I wanted to eat with him and I agreed. I don't know why but I did.

He held my hand and we walked to the rooftop. We sat at the benches and ate our packed lunches there.

We talked about random things until we decided we should play a get to know each other game.

"Okay, ask a question and we both answer" I told him.

"Okay" he said.

"How old are you?" I said.

"18" he replied.

"17" I said. We then went on and on until it got quite personal.

"What do you regret in your life?" He asked. I stayed silent I couldn't speak or move.

"Are you okay?" He asked worriedly he looked at my face and saw tears streaming down my cheek.

"Ah, sorry I should've never asked that" he apologized and stood up.

"I regret being born" I said with hesitation. I looked down at my feet not daring to look up at him.

He bended down to my height, "You didn't have to answer it, if it hurts to say it don't say it" he said and hugged me.

I hugged him back tightly placing my head on the crook of his neck. "Cry all you want, I'm here for you" he said in a soothing voice. I did what he said and cried.

Suga is different than other guys

He makes me feel wanted

He doesn't treat me like trash like my parents did and how my old friends did too.

Am I starting to fall for Yoongi

I can't

I just can't

I don't want to lose him

Like I lost everything

—696 words