One of the Guys | Luhan EXO Fanfiction/Love Story

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     Entering onto the soccer field, I kicked the ball as I slowly walked onto the damp grass. It was already dark out, but it was the only time the soccer field was empty. There were no fans, no girls, and no boys. It was a place I'd always come to whenever I needed time to think. I sighed as my eyesight began to blur with the tears that started to form in my eyes. God, Ysabella stop crying, he's not worth it. He doesn't like you, just forget about your feelings. 

     "Ysa?" I glanced up to see a familiar figure from afar. Alarmed, I quickly picked up my soccer ball and began to head in the opposite direction, ignoring the person that was trying to get my attention. "Ysa, wait!"

     My pace began to speed up, while my breathing became unsteady. I was beginning to feel anxiety building inside of me, and the tension rising into the atmosphere. I bit my lip nervously and began to speed up even more, gripping tightly onto the soccer ball as if my life depended on it. "Ysa, when are you going to actually talk to me for once?" 

     I shook my head, looking ahead towards the exit of the soccer field. "Ysa, please, can we talk  " 

     Suddenly, I felt a shot of pain on the back of my head as I turned around abruptly and faced him. It came to my realization that he had a soccer ball with him as well, and he threw it against my head just to get my attention. "What do you want, Luhan?"

     "I want you to tell me the truth," He mumbled, his face full of curiousity and confusion.

     "What do you want me to tell you?" I said softly as my eyes were glued to the ground and finally had the guts to look up at him.

     He took my soccer ball out of my hands and then took my hands into his, staring into my eyes as he began, "Do you love me?"

     I hesitated, and sucked in a huge gulp of air. I shook my head, taking my hands back from his, "I don't."

     Just as I was about to turn around again, he pulled me back to face him, "No, you love me, I know it, right?"

     I glanced up into his eyes and pursed my lip into a line, before turning my back towards him, taking a few steps away, "Fine. I love you, are you happy now? You got your answer!"

     "I'm not happy; I'm upset because you took it back the first time you told me that you loved me." He explained as I stopped my tracks and turned back around towards him.

     "I took it back because when I told you that I loved you, you laughed at me!" I slightly yelled, his face looking like he was taken aback.

     "But I've probably told you that I loved you back!" His voice rose as I furrowed my eyebrows in anger and confusion.

     "Probably? Probably as in maybe? Probably told me that you loved me back?" I questioned him as he was silent, "But towards my cousin, you'd tell her that you love her right away, right? No hesitations? Why is it so easy for you to tell my cousin that you love her? It's because she's beautiful and pretty, right?"

     "Do you think I only fell for your cousin because of her looks? Is that how low you think of me, Ysa?!" He yelled as he gripped onto my shoulders tightly. 

     "Sure, it's how low I think of you, but that's the truth!" I argued back, slapping his arms away from me, "I've loved you for the longest time, Luhan. You haven't even noticed me even though I've been right beside you, even though I'm with you everyday! But my cousin just came here a month ago, you didn't even know her and you didn't even see her as often as you saw me, but still fell in love with her right away!"

     He was silent as he stared at me, his eyes full of confusion and sadness. He couldn't reply to me because he had no answer at all, and I knew it.

     I began to continue, laughing to myself as my tears began to stream down my cheeks. It only reached to the point where I began to cry, but managed to mumble what I wanted to tell him, "Honestly, I was jealous of my cousin. Only because I'm just a bestfriend in your eyes, and that's all you'll ever see in me. Only because my bestfriend won't be able to love me the way I love him."

     I bit my lip as I tried to contain the sobs that were beginning to escape from me. I felt Luhan's thumbs wipe away the tears that were drying up on my cheeks. I let out a huge sigh, finally letting out all the weight that was on my shoulders. Finally letting out all the feelings that were in me for the longest time. 

     "But Ysa, I love you, as more than a friend." He whispered, our eyes meeting.

     "You.. love me?" I mumbled softly in shock, until I frowned, "But you love my cousin too. And, she loves you back. I don't want to hurt my cousin, and I know you don't want to hurt her either."

     I placed my face into my hands, shutting my eyes and finally looking back up. He looked at me with a blank expression on his face, but there were tears beginning to form into his eyes. I sighed, and turned around, picking up my soccer ball. Heading towards the exit, I began to walk across the damp grass, leaving Luhan behind. There was no other way I could keep the conversation going, and I couldn't bear looking him in the eye without breaking down into tears. I loved him too much.