Depression

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Lucas

Lately I been ... how can I piece this together... stressing? From my mama wanting to talk and now Mani ain't just been here for a nigga lately, I been working hard ash still paying bills for me and Leon's house that ion even be in cause I'll rather make sure Mani good and-

Mani: Babe you heard me?

I looked at her confused

Me: I'm sorry ... nah what you said

Mani: I said tomorrow I'm going to see August he can't have Reina around him anymore cause you know he can get her sick so actually me and her going to see em

I just nodded my head like this shit here is just straight bullshit to me now at first it was like iight cool but damn this turning to a everyday thing I rarely see her ass

Mani: Lucas don't start please

Me: Ain do shit

Mani: First off you ain't gotta cuss at me and I see it in your face that you feel some type of way

Me: That's good that you see how I feel but I'm use to it now have fun

I walked out and downstairs and turned around to see her behind me

Mani: Lucas wtf is up

Me: None man

My phone started buzzing it was a text saying

Unknown: Hey son, I really really want to speak with you and Leon please give me this chance I'm hurting son.

I sighed and noticed Mani was looking at me still

Mani: Is that a bitch?

Me: Mani cmon now that's my damn mama chill df out

Mani: Ok anyways what's wrong

Me: I'm good Mani alright

I was getting annoyed

Mani: Lucas

Me: Bruh youn seem to get it but since you wanna know so bad ion like you spending time with this nigga-

Leon

I was chilling in my room watching TV and had to pee so I went to the hallway bathroom and the door was locked ... it was quiet in there so I knocked and nobody said none so I picked the lock- ok ok long story short I opened the door on a naked Peylon 😔 she looked at me crazy and tried to cover up and I just closed the door shut ... I can't let none of this type of stuff start I gotta go

Mani

I mean yes I've been with August lately but it's not like that at all I just care for him and he be wanting to see Reina ion like that Lucas feeling like this but he ain't finna just have a attitude with me about this ... we grown

Me: Lucas boy you doing too much-

Lucas: Ima give you space then fuck it

Me: SPACE? don't play with me

My phone started ringing and it was August when Lucas seen his name he just shook his head and walked off

Me: Baby wait

I just let the phone ring I am not going to screw our relationship at all

Peylon

Brooooo wtf I took my headphones out my ear and sighed I'll talk to him later cause he the type that'll leave and go home cause he feeling queezy over stuff ... crybaby

Molly

I was scrolling on my ig and noticed people kept tagging me in stuff so i went on it and seen that it was a picture of Cuban and Asian doll

And the caption threw shade at me wtf ig

Then Asian doll started texting me saying how I should join them like noooo ... being in a group lame to me if you wasn't rapping with me from the start then there's no such thing as a group to me I'll pass and ofc I denied the request and she got mad like baby I'll prolly be mad too cause with me I'll put they ass on the map but I'll rather do that for myself df

I got a text from the Cuban doll she was saying too ignore the girl and all of that and how she respect my choices and I texted her back saying ain tripping on that but you keep grinding hun 💓

Respect for me you'll get it back ... simple

But with Leeeeoooonn y'all just don't get it like he somewhat brings the girly girl out of me I like this nigga but ain gon show it cause Molly ain't finna get hurt 🤷🏽‍♀️ sorry I'll just keep quiet ... till then ... free them boyz

August

I been handling this disease thing well and been good at not panicking over it as long as I see my daughter cheesing at me I'm good ... Mani really been here for a nigga and I'm happy she has it shows me that no matter what she cares but I know that Lucas feeling weird cause I'm a man and I will too but my mama busy and Mani got my daughter so who else gon bring her to me? ... shiiid he can 🤷🏽‍♀️

Anyways I went to the public and put it out there that this the shit that I'm dealing with, negative comments been coming through as usual and even the ' August Alsina is gay ' comments who df gay bruh 😂 that's the worse people can say about a nigga but I'm staying positive as usual I gotta make sure my daughter got food to eat

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