To move on is not easy...
I never thought I could let my guard down the way you made me do
How stupid could I be, letting myself feel so unworthy
so beautiful, yet so hurt
How could I fall for your charm?
That perhaps you have done to others.
You say you have so much respect for me but yet I feel that you are not of deserving me
I don't want to be your last option
I don't want to be the one by the end of the day
I want to be the only girl in your world...
I want to be number one.
I don't want the same treatment as the others
Show me how special I am
Don't be afraid to take the risk
I used to be afraid but perhaps you still have some growing up to do but I won't lie so do I
but yet I am opening myself to new experiences
Sometimes I get confused on whether I feel something or it's just attachment
but I do have good reasons to be angry at times
When I see you with another and telling her the similar sweet things as you do to me
When I see you walking with her
So close to you
Please I'd rather go blind.
You told me you value our friendship and would never want to risk it, not even to the others
I love how honest you are, but yet you break my heart
You play with it even when I want nothing to do with you.
There are times when I hate you, but I don't want want to express it because I'm not ready for you to leave for good
I don't want you out of my life completely
Yet I don't want to wait for you
Know that the reason why I was so hard to get was to test you on how far you would go to win my heart, but throughout the process you broke and you gave up
You made me see another side to you that was important for me to see
How naive I was to think you were going to be the one to make me experience a new type of adventure, which you did but I was expecting you to stay
I don't want you to stop loving me because I know you do
But I don't think I'm your number one
Wish you could stay...
You have no idea how much I could have embraced you
but you lost your chance, I lost my chance
The universe took a spin on the other side
so who knows maybe it wasn't meant to be...
but I thank you for the most beautiful moments
I'll cherish them but at the moment, I don't want to think about them
because I've lost my first close experience
and yet you are still here
but soon we will depart
I wish we could
I wish we could of but then again I don't want to get hurt
I don't want to experience the thought of losing you in a new level
so now I could say we never were
but yet again I wish we could have been.
