Look at Me Now (Yoongi X Reader)

Epilogue

Winter 1 Year Later:

Life has been good, I guess.

"(Y/N), you're on in 5!"

I live every second of my life without worries.

"(Y/N), you have an interview at 1. Don't be late"

I can assure everyone that I am happy.

"Beautiful (Y/N)! Now let's try a different pose"

But I can't say I'm not stressed.

"Come on (Y/N). Get it right! Left then right foot."

I suppose the pressure and high expectations of everyone finally got to me. Maybe I just wasn't suited for all this. I may be an adult, but I still have the mindset of a child who keeps failing their test.

Ever since I left Yoongi that day, my mind has tended to wonder off, keeping me distant from the other idols at the company. I constantly get thoughts in my head that make me question my choices.

'You should have accepted his feelings.'
'You did the right thing.'
'You're the worst.'
'Its all in the past now.'
'He hates you.'

If you're old crush confessed to you, isn't it the right thing to accept then. If so, then why did I do that? I truly do care for him.

I haven't kept in touch with any of the boys. All our schedules are so packed that the only time we see each other is at award ceremonies and on TV. I wonder if they are doing well.

I walked down the busy streets of Seoul with a face mask covering the majority of my face. I kept my head down as to not draw any attention from fans that may notice me. Opening the door to the cafe, a gust of wind blew the scent of coffee at me while I was engulfed by the warm air from inside. Taking my mask off, I smiled at the barista who, at the sight of me, immediately prepared me my usual. I seated my self near the window where I always sat. Taking short breaks from everything was so refreshing, but I still felt a bit uneasy.

Looking out the window, a BTS banner caught my attention and brought me back to my thoughts from earlier. Did Yoongi really hate me? If I was him, I surely would. Thinking over it, my actions from that day where unnecessary  and I was completely out of line for doing such things. Maybe I should get back in contact with him and apologize. Maybe I should just leave it be and move on.

What's the point? When the deed has already been done, there is no going back. Its most likely the best thing for both of us to let it go.

While lost in thought, I failed to notice my drink being carried over to me. It wasn't till a tap on my shoulder pulled me out of my thoughts and back to reality. I stared at the drink being placed on the table, the same old cream heart design that I was oh so familiar with. I said thank you and was about to pick up the wide mug when a sudden deep voice made my hands freeze.  

It was then that I noticed the hands of the thought to be friendly barista seemed more rough and veiny then they usually do. At the sudden realization, my mind went blank. I was suddenly overwhelmed with the feeling you get when meeting a long lost best friend you've thought so much about.

"Its been a while, huh (Y/N)? I almost didn't recognize you when you walked in."

This is it. The thought of a new start was engraved in my mind. The once doubtful thoughts that filled and ran through my head where all gone and replaced with hope. Before I knew it, a huge smile took its form on my face and I threw my arms around the figure. They were tensed at first, but it didn't take long for them to hug back.

"Min Yoongi, you have no idea how much I've missed you. I'm so sorry for leaving you. I'm so so so sorry."

I felt tears run down my face. I wasn't aware of how much I missed him and longed for his hugs. Through the hug, I felt his body bounce and came to realize he was laughing.

"Idiot, why are you crying? You're the one that has no clue how much I missed you!"

He hugged me tighter and laid his head on top of mine while I cried into his chest. It was this heartfelt moment that I will forever keep treasured in my memories. This moment will mark the day where instead of all those stressful long days, only good things will happen leaving a straight path towards a better tomorrow.