Dear God,
I'm guessing this may be a bit confusing becasue you know everything already but I wish I could REALLY tell you.
I wish I could touch your skin and be able to see your face and actually talk to you.
I wish I could sit there and talk about my jackass dad. ABout Daniel and my mum.
I wish you could give me great advise on friends, never get annoyed with me.
I wish I could really just speak with you.. Speaking with somebody usually requires people responding to each other. When I pray you can't answer me. Yeah, yeah I know people say they hear God's voice all the time. But no. No they don't. They hear what you want them to hear.
I don't wanna hear that , I wanna hear you. I want you to answer me.
I want to gossip about all the bitches at my school. About the boy I like because I only trust one person with that information on him. I want to talk to you about my future.
I want to sit next to you, hug you, and just cry from everything that has happened to me. Cry over Mason and how much I miss Kayla, Sydney, Jessica, Kaya, Kowa, Matt, and all those people.
Cry about how I don't fit in here. Talk about my mean teachers.
I want to sit next to you, have somebody play guitar and I just wanna sing to you. I wanna just look at you.
I am to afraid to pray all this stuff outloud. I'm to afraid to pray it in my head! I'm afraid that you aren't reall listening to me. I mean come on! You are trying to listen to basicaly the WHOLE world at the same time. I'm afraid that you aren't real and I am just talking to air. I don't know really. I'm just scared that you will never listen to me.
I guess that's all.... One day I hope to sing to you and talk about all this stuff.
