i can't survive if this is all that's real

little sungwoon au

day6 finished yet another concert and bowed to the MyDays who cheered for them passionately.

-thank you for coming tonight, Sungjin smiled brightly as he waved to their fans.

he took a quick glance at all the members before they headed backstage. he noticed Dowoon was rather gloomy and that he rarely smiled that night. moreover, the maknae barely acted like himself the whole week, Sungjin recalled. he wasn't really talking to them, instead choosing to practice alone in his room. he became colder even towards him, but he was so caught up in working on the new album that he failed to notice that.

-good job everyone, Sungjin said once everyone was back in the changing room.

he stared a while at Jae and Wonpil, who were bickering over something, then turned his gaze to Youngk, who was fast asleep on the sofa. he smiled fondly at his members, before his eyes went through the room, searching for Dowoon, but he was nowhere to be found. Sungjin felt his heart jump out of his chest for a second, but before he could freak out, Dowoon came in.

- where have you been?, Sungjin asked, a bit alarmed.

- bathroom, Dowoon told him monotonously, taking the only empty place available, which was beside Sungjin.

the leader sighed and decided he'd talk to Dowoon at home. he didn't want the other members to get involved. he wanted Dowoon for himself. the maknae returned the sigh as he took out his phone and started browsing sns to kill some time.

soon enough, their manager came in and told them the car was waiting for them. all of them got up and marched to the exit. Sungjin sat in between Dowoon and Wonpil in the back. he kept staring out the window on Dowoon's side (actually staring at the boy's reflection) as he mentally cursed at himself for not observing Dowoon's mood drop earlier. he told himself he was a bad leader, furthermore, a bad boyfriend. he felt like everything was moving in slow motion as he was running out of patience. he was eager to be alone with Dowoon.

as the car stopped, Sungjin looked around and before he could stop himself, asked:

- are we there yet?

- Sungjin, Jae laughed, we just stopped at a red light.

- right, Sungjin whispered, continuing to play with his fingers impatiently.

the rest of the ride Sungjin thought of ways to approach his boyfriend. it wasn't like it was the first time Dowoon was upset, but for Sungjin, every time was like the first one.

- we're here. Sungjin, get off, Jae told him with a smirk. are you ok? you're a bit off...

- i'm fine, Sungjin quickly replied, catching Dowoon's eyes linger on him, before he entered the dorms.

the rest of the band followed in as Sungjin was the last to enter.

- are you hungry?, Jae questioned, we could order something.

- that'd be great, Youngk yawned as he sat on the couch and turned on the TV.

- im not hungry, Dowoon mumbled, entering his room.

Sungjin sighed, considering his options.

- Sungjin-ssi?, Youngk called out.

- what?, no, eat without me, he replied.

he walked up to Dowoon's door and lifted his fist up to knock, but hesitated. instead, the door opened and Dowoon jumped up, surprised.

- hyung?, he eyed him suspiciously before pulling him into his room and locking the door.