"Thank you Ana" (Fifty Shades fanfiction)

13 January 2012

《Pregnant??? WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU'RE PREGNANT?》

Christian is keeping bawling at me, and i think i am ready to faint. I should be horrified about it too, but right now, i am just so scared of him, that i can't think of anything else!

《Stop it, it's not my fault!》

Oh my God he's so outraged! But...it's not my fault...is it??

《Of course it is! You forgot your pill! Am i right?》

He's so angry! I 'm afraid to speak...

《I didn't forget..we just...lost control two times..and i didn't catch the accurate time to get my pill the second time.》

He puts his hands to his head and i can clearly see he doesn't want the baby.
I don't really know if i want it too...but that reaction was really scary and discouraging.

I feel tired and sick...i think i am gonna throw up...

What is happening to me?

I run to the toilet and bring up all the food i've eaten.
Ohh...this is so strange to me...

I feel a little move in my belly. I throw up again and i finally wash my mouth, extremely tired.

My doctor said i am on my 5th week of pregnancy and the ultrasound wasn't so clear but the baby came across as a little pea. I have a strange feeling that he or she, can see everything from down there. Yeah..like a little stalker, who tries to involve in other peoples' lives and make them more complicated than they are.

I finally lie down, skimming my belly softly to calm down the little Stalker.
I don't know where Christian is and i don't want to see him right now.
I feel confused and upset. What if he want me to end my pregnancy? I am so scared.

I am sure not ready to be a mother, i am 21 years old! But..this little pea i saw in the ultrasound was so familiar...

A little piece of Christian..and i have to admit it. I loved Christian.
He just wanted me to be his submissive and now i love him and i have his child inside me.
This is too bad. I am the only woman who tried to be his submissive and failed like this. I am pregnant! What am i supposed to do next?
Leave? Let Christian live his life, take my Stalker and leave? Give birth or end my pregnancy?

I have so many questions and i can't stand this anymore.
I am so upset.

I feel my tears fall from my eyes and i can't help blubbering in my pillow.

I feel feeble moves from my tummy and i feel that my little Stalker is upset too.

Please don't be upset little pea...your dad doesn't like you at all but mom loves you...

I don't know if my thinkings are true but i want to calm him down..and i think i love him already. He's the only one who is with me right now...and i can imagine a little boy hugging me.

I touch my belly and new tears are slipping through my cheeks...

Every mommy loves her child little Stalker..i think you can hear my thoughts..don't be scared. We'll solve this.

Hey guys. A new story from me..hope y like itt♡♡♡