Becoming Alone

Chapter 10

     I put on a loose pink dress and curled my hair. I left and went to pick up Ryan. "Hey!" He got in. "Where do you want to go?" I asked. "There's a nice restaurant a few minutes from here." "Ok." I said. We walked in the restaurant. "You said nice, not fancy!" I said. He laughed.
     After dinner I dropped him off at his house. He leaned over and kissed me. I broke down crying. "What's wrong?" He asked. "I can't do this to you." I said, balling my eyes out. "Would you like to come in and talk." I shook my head for yes. "Come on." I turned the car off and went in. We sat down on the couch. "Start from the beginning." He said. "You know my step dad, well I called him shit-father. At the time, I was dating a guy named Zane. He was into drugs and alcohol. He tried to get sober. I don't know if he was sober or if he still drank, but I slept over at his place and when I woke up he was dead surrounded by cigarettes and alcohol. I thought he was dead." He interrupted. "What do you mean you thought? Didn't the ambulance come? Did they announce him dead?" He asked. "Yes. They did come. And they did announce him dead. After that I went back to school the next day. My parents didn't like Zane so they wouldn't let me stay home. A new teacher tried to console me when I was crying. He flirted with me. Later the police came to accuse me of taking Zane's body. That must have been when shit-father helped with a tip to the police. Zane got actors to do play medics and announced him dead." I began crying. "Wow. I'm so sorry." He said. "You're probably thinking why the hell did I ask her out?" He grabbed me and hugged me. "Not at all. This shows me how strong you are. And strong is beautiful." I smiled. But I know I can't be with him. We stopped hugging. "He must have followed me everywhere and done something because I kept seeing these things, like ghosts or something. I had weird visions too." I continued. "Do you think he could've drugged you?" He asked. "Probably. That dick had my mom wrapped around his finger. She didn't notice a thing. For all I know he drugged her too. Then he kicked me out. My mom didn't even say anything! After that I saw my teacher. His name is Norman. I really don't want to tell you this, and I regret it so much, but we slept together." He put his head down. "I hate myself." He looked up at me. "Stop. Don't. You were in a tough situation and needed something to feel good about yourself. I just hope now that I'm here, you won't need sex to feel good." He said. "After that Zane knocked on the door. I thought he was dead. But, he was alive and pissed. I left to go to my best friends house. Her name is Bri, when I saw a blue light. Norman probably drugged me at some point. Next thing I knew I was in my bed surrounded by everyone. I left and met Bri in the old park where I saw things again. She didn't see them but they lead us to a building and on the inside it looked like my dream. I had machines and stuff. Norman knocked us out and when I woke up I was tied to one of the machines. He talked about all this supernatural shit and said that he wasn't human. Then I happened again." I looked down. "It's ok. Keep going." He said. "He stabbed me. I woke up in the hospital. Norman took me there. When no one was in the room Zane came in and told me it was his idea. All of it. His plan. He said my family was being ripped to pieces. Then he shot Bri and tried to rape me. Bri saved me by hitting him with books. The police took him away and Bri was treated. I called shit father to come and get me, then I called mom to meet us at my grandmas. About 10 minutes later shit father came in and told me he did all of this. He said there is no such thing as magic and that he killed my mom and grandma. I ran out, leaving Bri behind and took shit fathers car. And I drove. Far. To start a new life." I finished. "Wow. So, you still need to finish high school?" He said. "Yea. I kind of forgot about that." It was silent. "You didn't go to the cops about all this?" He asked. "I couldn't. It was too much at the time. And if I go now they won't believe me." I said. "Please. Let me help you. There is a nice high school down the street. Stay with me, finish your senior year, and then go to college. We can be happy together." He smiled. I began balling my eyes out. "I can't. You won't want anything to do with me after I tell you this." I said. "What is it?" He asked. "Norman got me pregnant" I said. He just stared at me. Then he leaned over and kissed me. "I know you didn't ask for any of this. It's not your fault. How far along are you?" He didn't kick me to the curb like I thought he would. "11 weeks." I said. He put his hand on my belly. "The offer still stands." We smiled.