Safe

Chapter 1

I woke up shaking, screaming and sweat running down my face, I have been suffering from nightmares ever since my father started abusing me when I was only 3, he was a grate father to me for the first two years of my life but then on my third birthday something about him changed. He became violent and as each day went by he became more and more of a horrible person.

My mother didn't know anything about this as I was to young to even realise what was going on but when I was 5 I started to understand. I wanted to tell my mother everything but he said he would ruin my mother and I couldn't let that happen to her.

When I was 14 my mother still had no idea what had been happening to me when she wasn't around. He told me I was worthless, ugly, fat and that I didn't deserve to be here.

I stated starving myself when I was 9, after a few years of not eating I became anorexic and really really ill, I went to the hospital nearly every week. The doctors put me on a drip so I could get some food into my system. I started cutting at the age of 12, I was at the hospital for that a lot as well, to be honest I'm surprised I'm not dead but I guess I'm lucky sort of.

When I was 15 my mother died and it was all because of him.

My so called farther was at work the morning of her death well that's what he told us anyway, but me and him both knew where he was really going. Every morning he would get up before my mother woke, come into my room and beat me until he felt that he was finished. I kind of got used to it really, his little routine. He would then leave to go to the pub down the road, but before he left he would always say goodbye to my mother and tell her his lie about going to work. I knew he didn't go to work as I seen him everyday out of my window walking towards the pub. That morning my mother was cooking our breakfast, I always dreaded breakfast, lunch and dinner time as my mother would always spend a lot of time cooking for us and I only pretended to eat as I stopped eating and my farther wouldn't be there as he would be at 'work'. I would always wait until she wasn't looking and then feed my food to the dog. I know its a little harsh but what else was I supposed to do? anyway I noticed something odd about my mother that morning she seemed a little off. I remember my mothers smile when I came down from getting ready for school, I would always go to school in a bad mood but my best friend Tessa would always cheer me up. Tessa is the only person that knows about everything that happened to me. Anyways, before I left for school my father had came home but he didn't seem drunk like he usually does when he returns home. He pushed me on his way past, I didn't want to leave my mother alone with him that morning but I was going to be late so I had no choice.

That night I came home from school as normal but there was something different about the atmosphere in the house. I went into my mothers room to find her sat on the floor crying her eyes out. As soon as I saw her I ran over and wrapped my arms around her.

'Mum, calm down please, who did this to you?', I asked even tho I already knew the answer.

My mother would never tell me anything she always seemed to keep her feelings to herself and that is what worried me.

'Its nothing love, I'm fine, honestly.' she spoke through her tears.

And that's when it happened, he came barging into my mothers room knife at the ready and threatened to kill me as well as my mother but I knew what he was planning so I panicked and ran to Tessa's house for help I could always run to Tessa for anything as she only lived next door to me, but we were to late, when we returned he stabbed her right in the stomach three times then left. I just remember falling to my knees and crying, I couldn't move, I was frozen and shocked. After that day I knew my life would never be the same.

A/N

Hi guys I know this chapter is sort but its just a background of Bella's life basically, I will update either next Monday or tomorrow. Please vote and comment what you think.

Thank you and love you guys:)