Unlove Me ✎ meanie

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"Hey guys! One last practice! Then we're going home!" Seungcheol grinned and to lift up their spirits, he shouts it in a loud voice and cheers, everyone does the same, the difference is the rest of them do it tiringly.

As the first few beats of Don't Wanna Cry came in, he sees Minghao and the taller one pinch and kiss each other, he looks away and swallows thickly.

Ulgo sipji anha.

He smiles bitterly. He goes from his postion once Woozi starts singing his part, laughing a bit once Seungkwan and Seokmin tries to steal each other's part. The chorus kicks in and the most of them pant in exhaustion.

Wonwoo swallows another petal down as he sees the couple shove past each other and giggle. He sees Jihoon looking at him through the mirror and smiles once the younger male sent him a worried glance. The first chorus ends and he lost count of how many petals he swallowed. The other members became suspicious somehow, seeing his adam's apple bobbing up and down all the time.

Jun watches him the entire time, a glance meaning stop swallowing it all down, you'll die. The older one worries some more once he catches Wonwoo swallowing another pink petal, his adam's apple once again bobbed and god did his throat hurt so much because of all that swallowing. Wonwoo wonders how long is he going to do this, how long will this thing last until he's back to normal?

Seeing all the happy couples out there made the pain more unbearable. He was envious, he was jealous. Why were they so lucky? Why didn't they suffer from Hanahaki like he did? Why are they destined for each other? Why does he have to suffer through his whole damn entire life, vomiting a petal, a bouquet even? What the hell did he do in his past life for things to turn out like this?

Why was it so unfair?

When half of me is gone
How can I live as one

He pants just as he sang his part, the worried glances Jihoon and Jun sent him through the entire practice went noticed to him. And he was sure that they would pester him with lots of questions once the practice is done. And that meant a wave of nausea would come in his direction and send him on his way to the bathroom, or better, he would do the thing he does almost everyday, swallow it.

The last few beats kicks in until the song ends, he watches the whole team let out loud choruses of hooray, others didn't bother and gulped down a whole water bottle. Jun and Jihoon has made their way to him but his attention was piqued instantly as he sees Minghao and Mingyu give themselves a passionate kiss on each other's lips. He froze.

His stomach starts to hurt in an awful way and he bends down on his knees and lets his palm rests on it. A petal successfully comes out through his pink lips and the bright purple color of it has him getting his senses back. He hears someone call out his name but the deafening scream his mouth released was enough to block out any noises entering his ears.

The members bend down to his height and asks him if he was alright, his eyes refuses to look at them, his vision filled with lots of unshed tears of sadness and frustration. Jeonghan notices the petal just beside his worn sneakers and speaks up, "Wonwoo, honey, look at me. Are you alright." I'm not, I'm not okay, Wonwoo's mind speaks up brokenly. Jihoon shoves his way in on the little circle the whole group made around Wonwoo and takes his face in his small, soft hands.

"Hyung, hyung. Hey, h-hey, are you all right?" Jihoon pats his cheek a bit and sees a saliva roll down from his hyung's mouth and dribbles just on the tip of his chin, dropping into the practice room's smooth, flat floor. He wipes it with his thumb and sees Wonwoo sob at the pain on his lower abdomen.

"Hyung. I need you to vomit it out alright? Come on, listen to me." The older male shakes his head and places his hand just on top of Jihoon's, his hand shaking, "I-I'm okay."