Rebound and trust issues

Trust.

I thought that this was the real thing

My mistake...I should've known that this was too good to be true. You're friend said that you're depressed about your old girlfriend...If only you knew what I dealt with every day. He said that you feel bad about breaking up with me. If you feel so bad about it then why did you do it in the first place? If you knew you weren't over her then why did you ask me out? Did you plan on using me? I'd love to know what you were thinking when you asked me out that Friday night at the football game. If you knew you were over her then why did you say it with me? I thought that this is going to be different than all the other relationships I've been in... I thought you were going to be different... So why did you do it? Why did you play with my heart like it was some kind of toy? I don't know if I'm sad or angry. I guess I'm both, I'm sad because you broke my heart and I'm angry because you lied. Your friend said that he knew about our problems for a while now. If you knew things weren't going good earlier in a relationship then why didn't you tell me? Did you think I couldn't handle the truth? I'm a big girl I can handle the truth. Who knows maybe if you would have just told me what was going on and maybe we would still be together we'll never know now. I don't think you realize how much you hurt me when I found out you were just using me basically as a rebound. Being used doesn't just break your heart a break your spirit to do that makes you feel not good enough. Do you know what it feels like to feel not good enough? I don't think you do. Because if you did you wouldn't do it to someone else because you know how much it hurts. I honestly believed that you were going to be different from all the others. Realize now that I was completely wrong. I realize now you're just like the others, you wanted what you wanted and when you didn't get it you left. Maybe you're really not over your ex I guess I'll never know because I'm sure as hell not going to ask you. Why would I ask you that? Just to get my heart broken all over again? I think I'll pass on that one. If the excuse you're friend told me about you not being over your ex is really true then why did you not tell me in the first place instead of using me for 3 months. Why did you lead me on making me think that you actually loved me? Whenever I was with you I was happy I didn't think about everything that was going on at home I only thought about you. Thinking about what I'm going to get to see you, if I'm going to get to see you, how much time were going to get to see each other, that's it nothing else just you. I don't think you realize how much you meant to me. But it's over and done with now I've moved on and you've moved on obviously so the past is in the past but never forget when you texted me telling me that you were using me basically as a rebound.