Understated Choas

BLAME IT ON ME

The life started the moment I opened my eyes. But what about ending it. Will it simply end by closing my eyes. No It will never end simply like that. People will keep  you alive in their thoughts, In their life and in their existence. You know why because when you will close your eyes the moment it will happen . The blame game will start. Blaming all the miseries on you, Blaming you for every problem they are gonna face. You know why because they are coward. This much coward that they couldn't accept their fault. Blaming it on you is much easier you know why because you cant defend yourself.

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That's why I don't want to close my eyes before its time. I don't want to be a part of this blame game.

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You know why I cried every time the world broke my heart because I wanted to make a place in my heart to forgive them. But now when this heart breaks I refuse to cry. I refuse to blame them. And undoubtedly I refuse to forgive them.

You know when I stopped crying. The moment when my sir specifically told me that '' These tears are nothing more than NaCl ''  At that moment I laughed so heard and said thanks to him. But I never realized the words he said to me were no mere words. They are the cruel reality. He taught me that one specific lesson in that moment with that heartless expression.

I wonder where are the people who claim to be there for me when i will cry. I wonder where are the people who claim to knew me. Cant they listen to the agonizing screams of heart Cant they know the truth of my smile. Couldn't they see through my this beautiful façade. The talk of heart are nothing mere than lies.

Now blame all things on me. Blame that it was my fault not to tell you that I am suffering. Expecting that you will come to rescue me from my own thoughts. Blame it on me that i was am such a good actress that you couldn't guess. Now all the blames have been blamed on me. right ? But I will not blame you because i am not a coward.

You get this life once means that only chance to observe. Don't let that chance slip away, Just see around you. Is there anyone waiting for you to hold their hands. Is there anyone waiting for you to listen their agonizing truths. Just don't let it go. Just don't.

---hubblaiba