The Big Things in My life.

The Big Lie

So during the beginning of my parents separation they'd try working things out at times, leading to failure every single time they tried. My mom would just come home crying. Something a daughter hates seeing, especially knowing her dad was the one causing it.

   It's been so long yet I can honestly say it was the hardest time of my life.

   There was one specific night my mom was talking to my dad outside and I cannot remember what they were talking about that night but it was the usual. She walked in upset and went straight to her room, which was the only thing that was unusual that night because she would always come into my room to check on me and my brothers. So I climbed off my bed (bunk bed) and walked over to her room to try and comfort her.

    I honestly do not remember how we ended up talking about what's next to come but here it is.
   
    My mom looked at me staight in my eyes and said " I have a secret to tell you, it's a secret between me and your dad "
I was like "ok tell me."
She then insisted that it was nothing that maybe she should tell me when my dad was present in the room. I'm obviously not the type of girl to just leave wondering I will make a person tell me. So I convinced her to tell me because she can't just say that then not do it.

     She looked and me and stated "your dad is not your dad" I was like " what?! Hahahahah". I literally thought she was joking but she insisted that she was very serious and I just cried. I cried sadness, confusion and happiness all in one. Sadness because there was a man that didn't want me. Even though I didn't know this man. I cried happiness because even though I grew so much hate towards my dad at this point of my life it all faded away and turned into a great love for him.

    As time has passed me and my dad still have a great father-daughter bond that is irreplaceable. As for the man who didn't want me " sperm donor " is in a chapter yet to come. Advice I'd give to any son or daughter going through a parent separation, remember just because your parent(s) are not a good husband or wife does not make them a bad father or mother. Remember your place in it all. Your their child.