It's been off and on for about a month. It's just a sudden craving I get. When it happens, I want to take the nearest sharp object and make myself bleed. When it happens, my wrists tingle, as if calling out to me, wanting to feel the flow of warm liquid rush down my arm, the burning pain that snaps you into reality. Every time I've had this urge, I talk to my friends. They can sort me out very quickly, but the feeling in my wrists. . . It's like they're daring me to, and it doesn't go away for a while, it just stays, even after I've promised my friends, even after I tell myself over and over, "It's not worth it, you hate blood." Is there some thing wrong with me? Is that what it is? To have this sudden urge to make myself feel pain? I don't know. . . I won't try to find out. . .
