A Broken Trust

Chapter 13

After giving birth to her Little J, Kate continued to enjoy her maternity leave and sabbatical. Her belongings seemed to vanish from the Bureau, one family photograph after another, as Chris had been coming into the office to take some of her belongings home to her.

Two weeks later, Kate's desk was spotless, as if she'd never been there.

She, of course, gave everybody updates and emails on her new family life but she seemed to be settling back into home quite well, which was a great adjustment with the new little boy.

Chris and Meg were coping quite well too.

Meanwhile, Ronnie received an email from the Director of the Beaureau. She had completed her necessary testing and requirements. She had now been accepted as an official temporary member of the BAU.

She'd even been talking to Kate about her "desk arrangement". Ronnie had been working at Kate's desk since Kate was on sabbatical and the two of them decided that since Kate would be gone for a year, Ronnie could have that desk instead of leaving it empty for that amount of time. However, Ronnie insisted that as soon as Kate returned after her sabbaticle, she would take posession of the desk again. JJ and Emily had a similar arrangment worked out ,but the difference was that JJ would be back at the end of her maternity leave and Emily would return to interpol after that. The members of the team didn't really like to think about that. No one wanted Emily to leave them again.

"If only desk space was was always the worst thing we had to worry about with this job." JJ exclaimed one day, but then she called the rest of the group together.

"Guys, I have to talk to you about something. I'm pulling myself out of the field." ,she admitted.

"But, JJ!" Morgan said, raising an eyebrow in confusion, "You sure? You're not due for another couple of months, yet."

"I know." she shrugged, "But, I'm more than happy with my decision. Emily is here with us to take over for me, and Ronnie is finished with her training and can officially take over for Kate on her own now,too.

"So will you still be working with me here, Jayje? You will right?", asked Garcia. JJ shook her head slowly.

"I'll help from home as much as possible, but I won't be coming into the office for several weeks. Not until after the baby's born and we get settled in."

"But, JJ, why?" , asked Rossi. Everyone else other than Reid looked confused too. Reid gave his best friend an encouraging nod and squeezed her hand in support. He knew she now had to tell the team her secret, but this would be the hardest thing she'd ever had to tell them. JJ gave a shaky sigh and began.

"Guys, There isn't an easy way to say this so I'll just come right out and say it. I was pregnant once before this after Henry." JJ paused and swallowed back tears.

"It was during the back stop. I found out right before I left for Iraq. Cruz knew because I kept getting sick while we were out there and he asked me about it. The day after I told him, our team took a Humvee out to gather intel. The unit was ambushed." JJ stopped and looked down at her feet with tears running down her face. A moment later she looked at her friends again and finished the story in a shaky voice.

"I woke up in a hospital tent. A few hours later, Cruz came in to tell me I'd lost the baby."

"Oh my poor girl.", Garcia whispered as she rushed over to pull her best friend into a tight hug. Emily and Ronnie, with tears in their eyes, came over to join the other two women. The men in the room sat quietly, just processing. After a few minutes JJ pulled away from the hug and composed herself.

"That's why you have to leave, JJ, isn't it.", said Morgan. JJ nodded, then replied,

"Yes. I can't risk this baby too. I was about this far along when I lost that baby. I don't want it to happen again.",