philosopher's stone

envy.

I feel so envious of people I should be congratulating.

I hate if you get another friend.

I hate when you get a in a relationship.

I hate it when you get praised.

I want to be happy for you but I also want to see you fail.

I feel that no one notices me when you are around because you are better then me. 

I want to be you yet i hate every part of you.

I just want to know how it feels to be the perfect one who is shown in all of the spot lights.

the feeling of sadness and anger at myself makes me hurt.

the more I hurt, the more I hate you.

I blame you for me not being you.

I hate you, envy.