Red Rust Redemption

Days gone by

As I am suffering alone in this land my anger grows, I have more hatred towards this world. After all it just forgot me... I should be dead... I should be like everyone else... I thought I could get rid of these visions, I thought I could do anything as I am alone and day by day I struggle to find one more crumb and drip of water. Not only am I dying in my mind but I'm dying on the outside.

"The rust" I said "the rust on my car. Why is there rust on my car" Is this another sign, or is it just a coincidence for my suffering... Rust is caused by moisture trapped on the steel. What's going on with that. After all these days I haven't noticed the rust. I got rid of that thought that there was a chance for water again and again but there was always still a little glimmer of hope in the back or my brain. I could see there isn't any hope for me, but since I have lost my mind, my insides tell me your really close to a break through.

As I drive through the ruins of once a great vast city, I see the car die and the little E making me believe I'm for sure going to die. The car coasted and eventually stopped and the entire time I thought this is my final lap... I'm truly going to die here and be with all the people who I may have known. This is exactly what I want right now, the only thing I want in and on this once green earth is to die taking what last green down with it. I'm the last green, the last organic living creature and that thought made me want it more. I sat there and smiled and said "my little insignificant life will finally come to an end and the world will keep spinning and everything will be okay in the end because I won't be here. And maybe if there are anymore living things they can use what remains of me to survive and proceed where I failed" I smiled and a tear came from my eye and the thought of all those people like they were pushing me on... But... I'm just... just tired and all this hatred I'm feeling is turning into sadness, with sadness comes nothing.

Night soon follows and I wake up still alive in the middle of the night. I look out the window and I see something off in the distance it had a human apportion. Then a flash then nothing and I thought my head was imagining things. Later I wake again and there is something glowing out of the car in a near by building and it kept calling to me... But I just want to lay here and let myself die. However I made myself go and follow the light.

I walk into a room in some remains of a store and in the middle of it was a stick with a green glowing rock on it. I reach to grab it and then I hear a voice saying "I've been watching you for a long time Jackson" I stopped and yelled and fell to the ground "we are much alike you and I, we came from the same place, asked the same questions like who am I and what am I doing here" I kept looking around frantically and I couldn't see the source of the talking "where are you? Who are you? How do you know my name?" The voice said back to me "you know me Jackson, we go way back before the global transition, your wife was named Liz, she was the mother of your children Rick, David, and Ryan. You lived in the mountains in a small cabin" I ask " what is going on I don't know any of that... Who and where are you?" I heard the same very across the room "Jackson calm down" I said "then tell me who you are" I heard nothing but blank air this time and when I looked back at the staff I saw something standing there and it almost looked human and I stepped forward and sat on my knees as I looked into the face of this being... I know that face... Not in any of my visions but I've seen it... The name Cecil popped up in my head and I said "cecal... Is... Is that your name" it replied "I told you you knew me" after those words I looked into his eyes and thought everything is going to change yet again. I just stopped and I looked up and fell over and I fell as if I was paralyzed and I closed my eyes and said "not today. I will be here for yet another day" Cecil said "take my hand Jackson, your going to be alright" I reached out and grasped his hand and there was a flash of light and I didn't know where I was going to go from here.