I Had a Love

My One and Only

He was always there for me.
He said he loved me.
I loved him...

But then why is he gone?
I know they say if you love something you should let it go but...
You didn't give me a chance to come back...
You were mine and I was yours.
But by death did we part.

You gave me trauma and nightmares..
But also love and dreams
I wanted to have a future after we finished college but you could wait the two years.

You haunt my dreams.
Do you know what it sounds like when a body hits the ground?
Do you know what it feels like to have blood splatter on your face?

Such violence at your end.
Maybe I'll have such an end as yours
But I don't plan on dragging loved ones in...
Into the deep depression that follows such a death.

I can't handle it and I don't wanna find out if anyone else can.
You are still my love. My one.
Its been three years and I still can't imagine touching lips with anyone else.

I'm not dumb enough to try and find a love like the one we had.
You were beautiful.
Through your troubles and scars you continued.
You pushed through... For me

I guess I can't be mad. You tried.
And that's all I asked for.
You tried for three long years with me by your side.
I guess I should consider how we bonded...

Good bye, my one and only