Its inescapable hell.
I dont know who to tell. I feel like im falling apart but im intact. I talked to my doctor, they're testing my thyroid and they think i have depression. She said something about prozac but honestly the thought petrified me. My brother left, its really lonely here without him. I feel like im gonna panic and need to run to him but he'll be gone. He's not really though. I know that. I've been thinking about stuff lately. I kinda just want to let go. I wanna do things i dont do. Just anything. Anything is better then feeling this way. Its so empty and achey i dunno. Im getting closer to my urges to hurt myself. Its stupid i know. I always feel stupid. I dont know what to do. I dont really feel like i have anyone. Except my brother, but he's not here. It doesn't feel worth it anymore but i just gotta wait. Just gotta keep waiting.
