Eyes ; Jin

1:

"One caramel macchiato please." I smiled at the cashier and paid for the drink I ordered. "Thank you Maam, please wait for your drink" she bowed lightly as she gave me my receipt and I bowed back.

I was looking for a seat to sit in when someone called me, "Eunji!". I spotted the person and smiled widely, "Bomi!" I rushed to where she's seated and sat besides her.

"Aren't you supposed to be back in the dorm?" Bomi was sipping on her frappe when I asked as I tap my fingers on the table.

"Well, I snuck out.." she giggled then leaned back on the chair.

"You really shouldn't after that threat of murder sent to us..." I sighed leaning back on the chair as well.

"I hope our pandas are not that worried anymore.." She frowned as she took another sip from her frappe.

"I agree.." I was about to cross my legs and get comfortable but the barista called my name, "For Eunji!?"

"Oh! It's my Macchiato.." I sprang up and went to the counter handing my receipt to the barista and he handed me my Caramel Macchiato, "Thank you" I bowed then went back to Bomi, already sipping from my Caramel Macchiato.

"So Eunji, just finished your schedule?" she asked, resting her chin on the palm of her hand. I simply nodded as an answer, busy with my drink.

Bomi was telling me about how she snuck out of the dorm when I heard the store radio play, "Today is a nice day, so let's hear out a request from the viewers.." The DJ said.

I wasn't paying attention to Bomi's nag about something, I listened attentively to the radio, "Here's a request from a viewer from Busan, 'Hi my name is Hyerim! Can you please play BTS's "Coffee"? Thanks a lot!'..."

My eyes twitched hearing the group name of my ex, the smile as I drank from my caramel macchiato faded.

"Well you heard the girl, here's 'Coffee' and we'll be back for another request!" The DJ said and the song started to play.

~

Baby baby, you’re a

caramel macchiato

Your scent is still

sweet on my lips

Baby baby tonight

Baby baby, you were

warmer than the

scent of a cafe latte

Do you remember that feeling?

Baby baby tonight

~

I stood up and looked at Bomi who was still not finished nagging then pulled her up, "Let's go home.."

"Are you sure? You just got your drink, don't you wanna stay here for a while?" She asked blinking her eyes.

"I'm not feeling well..." I forced a smile and she nodded simply saying, "Okay then"

We walked back home because our dorm was a bit near to the cafe. On the way back Bomi kept talking to me which I didn't bother to listen to because my mind was only thinking about him. That jerk who left me.

It's been 6 years since that happened and still I'm quite mad about it. He eventually debuted as an idol as well, in the group BTS in 2013.

They became extremely popular over the past 4 years, breaking records hear and there while my group is slowly being forgetten and being replaced by new groups.

Whenever we have a same event or schedule, I tend to avoid being near him, since I don't want to hear or see him. But since we're idols and perform on stage, that's unavoidable. I keep seeing him in big screens, hear his voice through loud music, and see countless billboards, advertisments with him.

I'll always be in a bad mood whenever I see or hear him, but I hide it by smiling and acting like nothing's a problem.

We got back to the dorm and Bomi got scolded by our manager as she gets to her dorm and I went back to my dorm. Hayoung was playing games on the living room as I get back while Naeun was in her room, reading books while scrolling through her phone.

"Welcome back Unnie!" Hayoung said while being focused on the game she's playing. "Thanks.." I smiled towards her direction then headed to my room, passing by Naeun's, "Welcome back..." Naeun simply said as she took a moment and looked at me before glue-ing her eyes on her book again, I replied a 'Thank you' before going inside my room.

I stared at my drink for a while before deciding to throw it in the trashcan. I put my bag down the floor and plopped on my bed, sighing deeply as I stared at the ceiling.

"Why am I still like this?" I asked myself as I raise my hands up.

"Why can't I move on, and be able to listen or see you without being mad...

I'm sick of trying to avoid you

I can't enjoy my life that much because of you..."

Tears stared dropping from my eyes as I cover my face with my hands.

"I just want this feeling to go away..." I sobbed quietly, wiping the tears off.

Before I knew it, I cried myself to sleep.

Again.