I don't have many friends. Yes it looks like I have a lot but look closer. I'm not attracted to these people. They're entertaining. I like them occasionally, sure. But there isn't the special connection friends have. I talk to them, laugh with them, look at them but I'm not friends with them. They aren't friends with me. We know how to enjoy each others company with others around. Never alone, only in a group. Otherwise we don't know what to do. We can pretend. It ends uncomfortably. I feel nothing when they go away. Temporarily or permanently. Just another memory to be forgotten. I'm sure they feel the same way. If I'm wrong and they do like me, oh well. Sometimes there's only one side to a relationship.
