Yo, shut up.

I'm Good.

Chances.

You can always love again but when it's the one no other love will fill what's remaining. A soul mate a perfect fit. No other can and I can't stop thinking of the moments in the past and future. Call it crazy but I'll wait for another chance. I can't live without another chance.

Was mine to keep.

Some things can't be erased and things still aren't eased. I miss though the flower blooming as she sleeps. The golden voice raspy or mean. It's sweet songs to my mind to my soul you see. With the love brewing inside I can't imagine why I would let them go unsaid. A million times said, I won't have anything else in my head. A simple vision I see every night at bed. To be the only one holding that hand , making a genuine smile, blush and the whole nine. Maybe the vision is only half lit but my half is burning to the last bit.

Lying To Myself..

What happened to us?

What went wrong?

What made you lose faith in me

I thought the love was strong.

I thought it was okay

I knew it began to change.

When did you stop?

How was the range?

I hate myself for both ends.

For the pain you felt

The pain I endure because I still care when you don't anymore.

No one wins.

But you.

You get the life you wanted and deserved

With someone possibly better.

Sadly I still love you too.

Sadly I will still love you.

Sadly I still want you.

Sadly I miss you every second in the minute every minute on the hour and every hour in the day.

Sadly you don't.

These crazy phases these crazy thoughts

I'm tired of hearing it's a waste, it's not what you thought.

I need you, physically

To smell the scent bounce off your soft skin as it holds me as I hold you.

To mentally know and figure it out with me.

To hear your heartbeat as you're sleeping in such peace and safety.

I have to have you

As long as it takes

Two years, 3, 4, 5.

As long as it takes for you to be mine

Again.

As long as it takes

It's much more love to be given

As long as it takes

Unless you're satisfied with another.

Words can't change love being initialed not only on the heart but the brain.

No one could ever make me shake these vivid abundant memories I see every day every place. Every word.

I know you're in a different place

With a different face helping your needs.

If it's forever I'm pleased for you.

If not, I'll be here for you.

To paint you the world and provide it emotionally.

At this point, it's clear I won't let it be.

It's been months and counting and I'm still wanting you with me.

Hearing it's a waste or to move about doesn't help when you're all I care about.

Real love doesn't fall apart and I never healed back together and that's what I got.

Angel you're worth it.

Untitled 2.

I'm high right now and I just want to say

I fucking hate you. I wish I never met you I swear.

I'm lying like fuck and you know it. I love you so fucking much I can vomit.

I hate that you had so much control over me. But had.

Like you, I'm new too.

I say I hate you but I would never say it out loud because it would be a bold lie.

I'm high so until I come down I hate you but when I do I would die for you

I'm okay.

What was I doing? I broke myself apart trying to keep something dead flourishing.

I can laugh now. I don't cry now. I'm not sad now.

Well maybe a little.

Only when I think about the moments. Only when I want to be inside of you.

But.. I'm okay.

It took me a year to honestly say that I am okay.

I swore I would never be the same. I swore I would rather be in pain.

I was crazy.

Truly crazy.

I was sick. I was depressed. I was an alcoholic and I wanted death.

I suffered in silence and purposely caused it. I watched your life and I thought I could fix it all.

That was a problem. I thought I could always fix it. I wouldn't listen.

I regretted everything I said or didn't. Everything I did or didn't. It all flushed my mind when you said my name.

I'm okay but I swear to everything in me if I had another chance I wouldn't let it by.

I'm okay but sometimes that's a lie.

Thanks for the ride.

----- --- ----------- the most beautiful name ever created, spoken, written, and thought of. Nothing can ever compare. God has blessed her in so many reasons. From her life to her beauty. He blessed me with her, -----. She's helped turn my life from okay to wonderful bliss. Nothing has been the same, it has only became greater and in due time, perfect. Time can only perfect the love that breeds in my heart, mind, and body. The future holds power to the time spent forever with her. A chance like this should never be overlooked. So glad I have this chance. She knows her look stops hearts, well mine anyway. Blinds eyes, well mine anyway. Nothing more brilliant could ever form. For that, I was in love.