Hey there. I um really don't know where to start, but I guess I should start. With this.
You sit here and tell me that nobody wants you, but I don't understand where your coming from. I don't see where I became nobody. I mean, in my eyes I'm somebody. In my eyes I'm somebody important and my opinion matters. But I am pretty stupid.
But I am definitely not nobody.
So when you tell me nobody wants you, that hurts. Because I don't know how you can say that when there's someone fighting for you EVERYDAY, right infront of you, because they care about you.
So if you can't hear me when I tell you that you matter, maybe now you will hear me.
I am not no-one. So do not say nobody wants you because I want you and I fight for you everyday! I think about you everyday, I wonder how you're doing because I can't be there with you all the time! But that doesn't mean I'm nobody! CAUSE I CARE!
And you know, the person who says nobody cares about them is usually the person has the most people caring about them! So, yeah, this person I've been fighting for is the person who says that nobody cares for them when somebody does and do you know what? I'm cool with that.
But there is a line and when you cross it, you know that really will shut us off.
You told me, 'nobody wanted you.' Okay we get that. But then you have the nerve to tell me that there's no such thing as happiness or love!
RIGHT THERE
I know that is a lie. You tell me happiness and love is a lie and that it's all just fairytales and stories and it's alot like all of that! RIGHT NOW you're lying to me when you say that because I KNOW happiness, I KNOW love. You know it too but you're too BLIND to see it! Okay does it sound like I'm being really harsh right now? Yeah, that's called tough love! LOVE! LOVE! GET IT THROUGH YOUR HEAD! IT IS REAL! IT IS RIGHT INFRONT OF YOU!
You better smile everyday and if you really know me, you might find that hypocritical. But I smile everyday cause I FIND something to be happy about! EVERYDAY! Even when it's the worst day on earth, somebody makes me smile. Even if it has no relation to me. You know why? I recognize happiness. I understand it. I cherish it. I believe in it. But something's happen along the way and you no longer see it as possible.
You say it's a lie like fairytales. Fairytales, their not lies, they're supposed to inspire you.
You know. You look at this character and you see them go on through this situation that seems almost, totally impossable. You know, no human could ever get through that. But you see them preserver, you see them go through this and you see them holding their heads high! Even when they fall, they get back up! and then you see the end. Somethings, you know, there's good that comes out of what they just went through!
They're supposed to tell you that you should just keep going because there are good moments that happen and no matter who you are, you're gonna have a good bit in your life.
So don't close the book before you've even gotten to the good part. Don't tell me there are no happy endings because you're not God, you cannot read the end of your book, you can't read the last page. You can't.
But if you do close that book and you do stop writing it. I will pick YOUR book up in hand with mine and I will write yours and mine at the same time. I will think about closing mine, about closing yours, about closing them both because it's hard to write two books at once. But guess what? LIFE IS HARD!
Writing your book of life is gonna be difficult! And if I am sitting here willing to pick up your book of life and write it even when you are done with it! Then by God, you had best to better open your eyes!
Only a blind person doesn't see what's infront of them.
If you can't see that there is somebody so willing to do anything for you because they CARE ABOUT YOU, AND ARE HAPPY, AND THEY WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY AND THEY LOVE YOU! I just...
Because here's thing! There ARE HAPPY endings, I've seen them. There is love because I've seen it, I've felt it and I've experienced it and part of love, part of happiness, is pain! Because if you experience pain when you're happy, you know you're happy. When you're in love, you know you're in love! YOU KNOW!
Don't tell me it's a lie. Don't try to bring me down with you because I am not bringing myself down and I'm not gonna let you bring yourself down either. I will pick you up and I will carry you, so help me! Even after you're dead! I WILL FIGHT FOR YOU! I will fight for your memory, because guess what? Everything you do is etched in time, you can't get rid of it. So ending your life, ending that book, is not worth it.
So don't say nobody.
Yell out somebody wants you.
Because that's what you'll get.
