"My Dear Master..." (Jason McCann mini series)

Love Is Just a Word Without Meaning

Y/N's point of view:

"Are you okay?" Kimberly, the girl who I met on that night when I came here about two week ago, asked me when she noticed my bluffy eyes

"Let me guess, those same nightmares again" she said and I nodded quickly. "That sucks" she mumbled. She came to hug me and told that everything would be fine. It made me feel a little better but her sweet words couldn't make me forgot those terrifying pictures inside my head

Those nightmares kept filling my nights that sometimes I felt like I didn't want sleep at all. The same routine run on them everytime.

There was me and my parents whose figures got farther every second. I try ran over them but the glass between us to block my way there. I keep screaming but nobody hears. After that, I almost every time wake up.

Kimberly had told that those kind of dreams weren't unfamiliar to her either but for her, they had disappeared after a week.
Some other girls suggested that I should open about my feelings to some of them but I had ever been like that.

I had just accepted my life and future here, so it shouldn't have been problem either anymore but those nightmares didn't leave me still. They kept torturing me and bringing back me from the beginning every single day when others where already reaching the finish.

I didn't feel like getting up from my bed, not today. I felt sick and tired of everything. This wasn't fair, I thought. I had promised myself that if I ever get out from here, I'm sure that I'll make my parents pay for all this.

My lack of interest on doing anything, redound when the guard stepped in the room a half hour later. He didn't give me any time to dress up anymore even I tried fight back, but took me with him. "Master is waiting, doll and he won't make him happy if you are late" he said and same time reminded what disobeying his commands would mean.

I felt cold when we walked through small hallway to the room where all girls sat in row. We sat down on dark red seats which were meant to us, me, Kimberly and two other girls from my room. The door closed after the guard and deep silence filled the room.

We weren't allowed to talk each others. I kind of understood why it was like that even no one had ever told me the reason. They wanted keep us as far as possible from new contacts because later it'd mean troubles to guards and Master, when we might stand against them. I understood them and read their thoughts better than they maybe could even notice.

The door from the other side of the room opened and Master walked in the room. He was wearing a long black jacket and same colored jeans. "Hello, girls" he said softly and most of girls said 'hi' back. I was one of those who didn't.

I hadn't found yet that respect and love over him. For me he was still one of those people who were part of the plan to ruin my life forever. I just couldn't find anything good from this. Yeah, he was handsome, I could agree with that fact but it couldn't change the fact, he was inside full of darkness.

I strongly suspect if there was even a little love or caring inside him. So far he hasn't showed any to us.

Master walked around the room and kept touching others girls shoulders before he stopped behind my chair. "Y/N decided seemly make it easier for me today to punish her, or why are you showing up here in outfit like this?" he asked to me. I didn't know what to answer him because I couldn't blame the guard of that at least because he just followed his orders and wanted keep us in time.

"Seemly you won't answer my question... well, you know what that means then" he said after he continued his round. I knew exactly what was coming but I could blame it only myself. I had put myself in this mess by acting like a bad and worthless bitch.