Chloe's just got to her dorm after seeing her mother.
*dorm door slams shut*
"I fucking hate that woman, she's not my mother" Chloe shouted as she slams her door shut and throws her bag across the room.
She grabs her box from under her bed and starts to role a joint and a few tears come down her face. Tears are every where, she's finished roling and is now in the bathroom. She sees her knife and starts to cut.
'I'm worthless' cut...
'Not good for anything' cut...
'Why am i here?' cut...
'No one will miss me' cut...
'That birth giver wouldn't give two shits if i was dead or alive' cut...
'I have no one' cut...
'I'm just a nobody' cut...
All of these thoughts were going through her head, there was nothing she could do to stop them. They were taking over her, she wanted it to stop. She wanted everything to stop.
After about 20 cuts she stops, there's blood all over the bathroom. She's sat on the toilet crying and smoking. She picks up her suicide note she wrote a few weeks ago and starts to read it. All she wants to do is die, she wants to be with the person who loves her the most, her dad. It's not like her mum would care, she hates Chloe's dad, she was glad when he died.
She's smoked her joint and was completely numb from the joint and in the areas where she'd just cut.
She leaves the bathroom to grab her phone. As she picks it up it starts to ring, shit, it's Beca she says outloud. She's trying to stop the tears and just sits down.
"Hey babe, you ok?" Beca speaks softly to Chloe.
"Yeah, i'm fine Beca, how are you?" Chloe lies, not wanting Beca to know that she's high, she's numb and trying to keep quiet so Beca can't hear the tears that are streaming down her face.
"Chlo, are you crying?"
Silence...
"Please talk to me babe, i'm really worried about you and so are the girls, want me to come over, we missed you tod-"
Before Beca could finish what she was about to say, Chloe interupted.
"No, look, can we meet at the park in about twenty minutes?" Chloe says but then silently cries again. She didn't beleive Beca when she said that her and all the Bella's were worried.
"I can be there now if you want, Chlo, you need someone, i know you're crying ok? i want to be here for you..."
"Twenty minutes will be fine Becs - her voice breaks - i need a shower"
"Ok, see you in a bit, oh and babe?"
"Ok and yeah?"
"I love you ok? please remember that"
Chloe just cries and hangs up. Beca hears her crying and then the phone goes dead. Beca's hurt, she's never known Chloe to cry on the phone.
Chloe's stood in the shower, crying because of the pain that was shooting out of her body. She had to get out the shower and now.
She threw on a pair of leggings seeing as how they were the easiest thing for Chloe to get into and threw on a vest top over her bra.
