Chapter 24 : Why Do I Love You ?
For a little clarification about the babies just in case you are confused or just forgot
Jacobs baby isTwin #1 Camille Emory Latimore
Diggys baby is Twin #2 Camilla Sapphire Simmons
| Hazels POV |
- FLASHBACK -
Hazel : No strings attached right ?
Diggy : No strings attached
- FLASHBACK OVER -
7 Months Later
No strings attached was what we stuck to, but now you could say it was a one night stand because his boo was out of town so he needed a "quick nut" plus I also found out that he had a baby on the way, I'm not jealous though I'm actually happy for them I mean no hard feelings right? Right!
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"Peek-A-Boo!" The twins started giggling "TICKLE , TICKLE, Its the tickle monster!!!!" They went crazy when I started tickling them and it just only made me happier I absolutely love motherhood its like a side a never new I had , I always doubted that someone would even give me the time of the day but look at me now with twins !
"Mama?" That warms my heart every time I hear it, I'm so glad that I have my babies back
"Dada, Dada, Dada!!" I love the fact that Diggy stepped up to the plate Jacob should've stepped up to
"Daddy missed his baby girls" See! He's been such a great help "Hazel could you bring me a diaper for Camille please!!!!!!!!"
"Diaper for Twin #1 coming right up!" I threw him the diaper and cut on the T.V after we all got situated with our snacks and drinks and sippy cups. I turned it to TMZ and you wouldn't believe what I found out ...
" TMZ coming at you live, this is Kenya James coming at you with shocking news R&B Singer Bahja
Rodriguez came to us with shocking news... THERES AN BABY ON THE WAY ! More interviews right ahead
I sat there shocked at the "shocking news"
"Hazel!!Hazel!!Hazel!!!" I heard him but just couldnt say anything, the only person I was trying to hear was Jacob, thats it! I just wanted the only person who was here for me whenver I needed someone, my one and only friend, hell my first everything. I just want to know what happened to that bestfriend. Was it the fame? or was it me? Is it that he only wants Bahja? or is it that Bahja doesn't want him to want me?
"Hazel?" Diggy came to me tapping my shoulder, I looked at him with my glossy eyes, he just held his arms out for me to come into, he comforted me til I stopped crying.
"Hazel, talk to me, why are you crying?" That's what I dont understand, why am I crying?
"I honsetly cant explain why im crying, maybe its the fact that he abandoned me after 9 months of caring his child and another child. Maybe its the fact that he hasnt met or even gives one fuck about his child. Maybe its the fact that while he's somewhere living his life while im raising his child by myself. Maybe its the fact that you had to step up to the plate and help raise not just your child but his too! Maybe its the fact that I love him but just cant even bother to care for him. Maybe its the fact that I cant move on because no one wants a broken-hearted girl, with two kids from two different men. Maybe its the fact that I dont even give a fuck about no one but my girls. Maybe its the fact I hold all these feelings in and I think thats what hurts me the most, the fact that no one cares at all about how I feel or even asks how I feel or is that I actually had no true friends? Hell, I had no friends all my life maybe it shoulve stayed that way maybe I wouldnt be in this situation, maybe I could be in college pursuing my dreams, being married with kids not what I am now but you know what I cant even complain, im living life, got two wonderful daughters, and still can provide for me and them, I mean yeah im in college but just not how I wanted to be in college but its okay I got me for me, I dont need the fame, the money, all the extra stuff just me and my girls, what more can I say? Life is a song, we sing it. Life is a game, we play it. Life is an challenge, we meet it. Life is a dream, realize it. Life is a sacrifice, we offer it. Life is love, we have to enjoy it
After getting my feelings out I felt complete, I felt like nothing else mattered, I felt like I knew things were going to get better, Matter of fact I know things are getting better and thats just it. My mood brightened up when I remember my babies birthday
Three Days Later
Today is finally the day I've been waiting on, my babies finally turn one! Im so excited but I just hope everything falls into place and works out perfectly. I dont know if Jacobs coming but I hope he does and his girlfriend Bahja, yes I said it. Honestly, I have no genuine problems with her, it was always her against me.
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I walked into the twins room to see them up looking around "Happy birthday too you" I started singing to them, they were all smiles well all gums being that they barely had teeth
Diggy walked in the room with his hands full of gifts, the twins cant even walk but yet he just rolled two tricycles. It was the funniest thing to me so I just had to laugh " Whats so funny?"
"Tell me why you got two babies that cant walk yet a tricycle?"
"Its the thought that matter Hazel"
"Okay Diggy"
