Young love.

I felt a nervous feeling as we were sitting in the dark movie theater. He had his arm around me and his jacket covering me.

I guess this was the way love was supposed to feel. Amazing. His name was Shane. Shane Howard's and I believe he was the only reason I wanted to live.

I suffered from anorexia and self harm but that all changed when the love of my life walked in. He's my everything.

You may know what love feels but not just any love this love was special. Something I cherished tiny heart. The boy I wanted to see everyday of my life and feel his warm lips come upon mine.

I was sitting on the couch one night when Shane walked in with his hands behind his back and softly said "I have a surprise for you" he sat down next me still with his hands behind his back like he was handcuffed. He told me to scoot a little closet so I did and Shane said "happy 4th anniversary honey" and gave me a bouquet of beautiful red roses and kissed my lips. This feeling was the best feeling in the world.

We layed there in my bed the next morning thinking what a wonderful anniversary gift. Shane told me to cool breakfast so I got up and did. He needed to get ready for work so I tucked in his tie and gave him a small kiss on the cheek then he pushed me up against the wall and kissed me ever more. He said "I love you sweetheart" and got in the car for work.

I did my normal routine, cleaned up the house and did some college homework until I felt really sick and threw up. I thought I was just having a stomach bug but... No... Oh god, NO! I went to the bathroom and got out a pregnancy test and tested myself. I'm pregnant!! What will I do? My mom and dad will kill me! I can't afford this!

So after a little while I sat down and calmed down with a glass of tea and then something vibrated. Shane left his phone, and I was just about to ignore it when the message said from somebody named "Melody" I thought to myself that was probably his cousin. I looked at the message and it said "babe come to my house ASAP I wanna talk" I was mad. So mad I threw the phone an it cracked into pieces. After all this time Shane was cheating on me I can't believe this!

Shane came home at about 11:38 that night and was drunk. "Where were you babe?" I was acting nice for now. He replied "work honey" and kissed my cheek. He took a quick shower an layed next to me. He put his hand up my shirt and started kissing my neck. I pushed him off of me and asked him who the hell was melody. He replied "who are you talking about baby?" And I got very mad. I slapped Shane so hard that it made him mad and he left. He stormed to the car and took off. I just went to bed and layed my head down. What a mess.