Unique As Everyone

I love unicorns, dinosaurs, grizzly bears, and puppies

playing with mud, herbal medicine, jewelry, and luxury but not yuppies

Pot, whiskey, meditation, and self help audiobooks

video games, I love reality tv and I know how it looks

I hate watching horror, family comedies, romance, and dramas

I write romance, tragedy, and draw from my own traumas

Black, dark red and dark blues make up my wardrobe

Orange, beige, and lots of bright flowers decorate my abode

Spiders scare me, like i've been knocked off my feet

but i'll stare at a group of ants for hours, they are so interesting and neat

I believe in marriage, family, and a conservative life

But I'll get naked for a tan and i'm not opposed to going under the knife

In fact sex is the ultimate expression of love

I'll talk about it easily but only do it with my one belove

I hide from people I know, creating projects to express me

Then I go ahead and put it all out there for the world to see

My dreams tell stories of a girl with super powers always running from something

In reality my greatest threat is me, a powerful voice screaming the complete opposite of nothing

Anxiety riddled, perfectionist, nerdy white girl, pushover, snob

a million thoughts, good at everything, beautiful, easy going, quiet rather than sob

Cut myself wide open, literally, to many times to count

but expressing how I feel to one I love is so difficult to surmount

I've been to hell and back, and on some level maybe, took the trip willingly

Still wrapping my head around that, doing the mind work diligently

I'm sensitive about my past and I acknowledge I have triggers

I truly believe you respond to what I feel, so i'm more forgiving to the sinners

I wanna say I'm contradicting but thats not really it

I'm just as unique as everyone there is no usual one fit