Nilapag ko ang bulaklak sa ibabaw ng pangalan ni nana.
"Look nana. I brought your favorite flowers." I smiled. My voice sounded so weak and cracked that it felt like it was a whisper. Tears pooled inside my eyes, like they were prisoners trying to escape. I feel helpless and stupid.
"Nana what do I do now?" the prisoners trying to escape inside my eyes were successful. My chest hurts like hell. My nose is clogged and I can't breathe. I just wished that I would stop breathing and die.
"I know you're laughing at my face right now nana." I tried to laugh but even the wind would notice how fake it was. I sniffed and wiped away the river flowing in my eyes. But after I took it away my vision is still blurry and my chest hurts like it was being smashed by a raging man.
"Nana. I have to go. See you again. I miss you." I took my bag and retouched my make up. I sniffed and took a look again at my face to see if there was any blemish, luckily there was nothing, but my eyes were red. I looked at my wrist watch and it was ten thirty am.
"Shit." I whispered.
I prayed that I wouldn't be late for my class. I was rushing to go outside the cemetry. I opened my car and started driving. Five minutes after driving I joined the traffic jam on the road. "Fuckin hell." I beeped my car to because of stress. Habang hinihilot ko ang aking sentido ay biglang tumunog ang aking cellphone. Nagising ang tulog kong diwa dahil sa lakas ng ringtone ko.
"Mama is calling." Flashed on my screen.
I answered it. "Yes ma?"
"Ga, did you visit your nana already? Your sister cannot make it today eh. May sakit." She said in a sad tone. I sighed. "Yeah. I brought her sunflowers. Hope she's gonna get well." I accelerated my car using my other hand. "Okay. We're going to eat later for dinner. Be here around six. Goodbye, take care." She ended the call. While waiting at this very long queue. My thoughts became alive. The memory is still fresh. How that person killed my nana, thinking about it makes my anger spread like poison in my system.
On that day I promised myself to make that person pay whoever he or she is. I will find him and I'll make him suffer like he's living in hell.
Mabilis ang lang araw na ito. Nakikinig ako sa proffesor namin pero hindi pumapasok sa utak ko ang mga pinagsasabi nya. "Did you get it?" Tanong ni sir.
"Yes." We all lied. And started packing our bags.
"Dismissed."
Inayos ko ang mga libro na dala sa loob ng bag ko. May kumalabit saakin kaya naituon ko ang atensyon ko sakanya. "Uhm. Sabay na tayo lumabas." Ngumisi si Bela saakin. "Sure." Ngisi ko pabalik.
It's around four in the afternoon. Palapit na kami sa gate." Bela, i have to go na. May family dinner kase kami ngayon eh." Paalam ko. "Okay sige. See you tomorrow i guess?" She waved at me. "Byee!" I waved back and smiled. Pinatunog ko ang sasakyan at nagsimula ng mag drive sa BGC. I went to a bread place and bought something to replenish my thirst.
I called my sister to check if she's fine. "Hello?" She answered. "Are you okay? I was just checking if you were fine." Sabi ko. "Yeah, still alive though." Tumawa sya. Ngumisi ako sa hangin. "Oh sige. Mag reready lang ako tapos pupunta na ko jan. Bye." I ended the call at dumiretso na ako sa elevator. Before it closed there was someone running towards me and put his hand in the middle to stop the elevator. We eye contact each other for like seconds and I looked away.
