By my side [Lirry] {COMPLETE/EDITING}

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-3- EDITED ☑

I felt a warm hand on my shoulder, and shook it away. The warm hand contacted with the naked skin of my arm again, and I heard a low husky voice calling me.

‘Liam, are you awake?’

‘No.’ I grunted, and the person laughed quietly.

‘Then how did you answer me?’ I opened one eye, and saw Harry standing in front of me, the soft light of my nightstand illuminating his face.

‘Hey Harry. What’s up?’ I asked sleepily.

‘I couldn’t sleep…’ I sat on my bed, and tap the place beside me.

‘So, why didn’t you could sleep?’ I asked.

‘I have too many thoughts in my mind.’ He said playfully.

‘I know how it feels. Do you want to talk about it?’

‘I just don’t know what’s going on inside my mind…’ I nodded and then asked him. ‘Can I know what?’

He stared at my eyes, and ran anxiously a hand through his hair . I felt a strange feeling in my belly, like those so-called “butterflies”.

 ‘Someone.’ He admitted breaking the moment.

‘Who?’ I asked, leaning in.

‘It doesn’t matter Liam.’ He said standing up. I felt my heart breaking. ‘Sorry, it was all a mistake, I shouldn’t have waked you up.’

‘Harry, wait. Yes it matters! Please, I need to know!’ I truly said.

 ‘No, I can’t. Sorry.’ And then he left me, like he would always do. Desperation filled me. I wanted to scream, to  break everything I could in that room… But I simply couldn’t. I couldn’t let the others know… So I cried.

I didn’t remember to fall asleep again.

In the morning, Louis woke me up, and asked me if I knew where Harry was. All the memories of the night before flashed through my eyes, and I couldn’t contain the tears.

‘Liam I know everything.’ He said calmly, sitting beside me, and rubbing my back.

‘About what Louis?’

‘Don’t be mad at Harry, Liam. He’s afraid, that’s all. Give him time. He loves you, believe me, he loves you so much, you don’t have the slightest idea. But he’s afraid. And he’s trying. God knows, he’s trying so much! Just give him time.’

‘During the night he came to my room, because he couldn’t sleep, so I stayed up with him... He was about to say what was going on, but then he ran away.’

‘It was my idea, I told him to talk to you... But don’t worry, I didn’t tell him anything about how you feel. But now, I was going to talk to him, to know how things went last night, and he wasn’t in his room. You guys are my best friends, my brothers, and I don’t want to see you sad…’

‘How I feel? How do you know that?’

‘Your behavior is totally different when you talk to Harry… And I could have hear something last night…’ He said smilling.

‘I guess I can’t blame you…’ I whispered looking to the floor.

‘Ahah, I knew I heard someone that night!’

‘Sorry.’

We stayed quiet for a minutes, until he spoke again.

‘Li, do you know where he can be?’

‘Have you checked his room?’ I asked, getting up, and walking to Harry’s room, the one next to mine. His bed was a mess, so was his room. And so is my life, I thought.

I tried to phone him, but it flashed on his nightstand. Obviously he didn’t want to talk to me; I should be the last person he wanted to talk in that moment.

I sat on his bed, thinking about where he could be. It was really early, so he couldn’t be at any store… I thought about places he likes, and then I remembered.

‘I can’t believe we lose him in the day of the last show…’ I simply said, and walked back to my room, sitting in the floor, with my head on my hands… Then it popped on my head. He wouldn’t be too far, and if he was on the hotel, he could only be on the roof balcony.

I started running to the stairs that lead to the roof top, Louis running after me. He was there, like I thought. Sat in the exact same place that he was last night, his back turned to us. I could see from my spot that he was sobbing, and his head was resting on his hands. I froze in my place. That image simply broke me. What now? All I wanted was to run to him, and hug him, but before I could, Louis put a hand on my shoulder, stopping me.

‘I take care of this… Don’t worry. Go wake the others; we’ll be down in a bit.’ He said, sending me a smile. And I nodded. Louis sat beside Harry and he simply started crying again. I couldn’t see it, so I turn around and sat at the end of the stairs.

After a long wait, I heard the door upstairs opening, and Louis screaming ‘Earth calls Liam!’.

‘Shut up Lou.’ I said, with my heartbeat still fast from the scare. I noticed a silent Harry standing beside Louis. He looked at me, and I sent him a reassuring smile.

I got up from my place on the last step, and walked to my room. After a long bath, I was getting dressed to the sounds checks of tonight show, when someone knocked on my door.

‘Yes?’ I said, and Harry opened the door. ‘Oh, hi Harry.’

‘Hey Liam, I wanted to apologize for last night…’ He said, staring at the floor when he noticed I hadn’t my shirt on. I smiled, and put it on.

‘It’s ok Haz, it’s my fault. I shouldn’t have pressured you to talk. You don’t feel like talking about that, and I get it. I’m the one who needs to apologize. So, sorry.’

He looked at me, and I saw how torn he was. ‘Don’t blame yourself. I’m going to tell you, but first I need to figure out some things. Could you give me some time? Please?’

‘Of course. Don’t forget, whatever it is, I’ll always be by your side.’ I said, meaning every word I was telling him. I would give him some time, if that was what he needed.

‘Thanks, but I don’t know if you would.’ I hugged him, and whispered ‘Yes I will, I love you, don’t forget that.’ I felt him wince under my grip, and I pulled. He looked me in the eyes, and his piercing gaze was blurred with tears. Then, as always, he left my room without saying a word.